u/DigitalSpicySpice

Hey, so I’m 21, just started T injections (.25 ml a week) two weeks ago. I’ve heard a lot of people on here talking about ‘girlhood’ and how it’s the only part about being a woman that they could possibly miss or that takes a bit of getting used to, like, not experiencing anymore. What is girlhood? I mean, I’ve only ever asked strangers for feminine hygiene products like 2-3 times. I’ve never done my hair up with any of my friends. I’ve only ever had a traditional slumber party maybe twice and I’ve only ever spent the night with a friend like less than 5 times. I’ve only ever gotten my nails done with a friend once or twice. I’ve never gone to the bathroom with my friends, I mean technically one time in their bathroom in their house, but like, it made me really uncomfortable and I never did it again. And I’ve always kind of gotten judgy looks when I tell someone in passing their baby/kid is cute or I compliment women or whatever anyway. I’ve only had maybe 4 or 5 female friends in my entire life, one of which tried to SA me and the others ended up leaving me the second they found someone or something more entertaining than me I guess. Every feminine circle I’ve ever walked up to has immediately given me that rude asf up down ‘ew’ look. You know exactly the one I’m talking about. I only have one female friend now, really. And the thing is I don’t really enjoy having friends. Well, I guess, now looking back at it, not in the feminine sense (from my experience). I don’t like talking everyday. I don’t even like talking every week. I prefer to not talk to my friends (and even family) or interact with them at all for like 2-3 weeks and then maybe give them a call and talk for like a half an hour to an hour. And talking is the ONLY thing I really like to do with people. I like to get my nails done by myself. I like to go to the bathroom by myself. I like to watch my shows and play my video games by myself. I like to do my art by myself. And what sucks is that, looking back again, the majority of the guys I was friends with were probably just friends with me for my larger chest, as I found out in my senior year that since there were two people with my name going to the school I went to, EVERYONE had taken to referring to me as the ‘[deadname] with boobs’. One of my female friends at the time brought it up to me. Laughing about it. And assuring me that it was EVERYONE who thought about me like that. Like WTF is GIRLHOOD?

Okay do not shame me but I built an entire OC, OC ref sheet, around this ONE BOT and I deleted it with the intention to restart the chat to see if the intro had been fixed yet (the grammar was kind of weird) and had his tag copied but when I went to paste it into the search bar it didn’t work :,D

Now I don’t have his tag copied anymore

I know the tag started with 8e and his name is Brian and the picture is kind of like mostly in black and white and it’s a surrogacy thing and the intro is, like I said, a little weird grammatically. But it literally says he’s gonna pay the user 700 thousand dollars to be a surrogate for him or whatever (so whoever is looking knows what to look for)

Yes, it is omegaverse. Do not judge.

I am autistic. This is bothering me immensely bc in EVERY OTHER RP THE RICH/CEO GUY IS LIKE YOUR HUSBAND OR BOYFRIEND OR SOMETHING. I don’t want him to have known my character previously it messes up the whole backstory. 😭 Pls help me.