just turned 25 cant pretend to be a woman anymore. pre anything. am i fucked
(likely deleting within a day or two)
5'8" 140lbs. well aware of how i am currently perceived but i'm trying to gauge if there's any hope for me or if i'm destined to look like someone's unkempt teenager that wandered off in walmart.
entirely unnecessary context you may nonetheless find interesting:
always felt something was deeply wrong with me but i coped. tried being nonbinary for maybe 3 years but now it's started to feel like a joke. especially in the past year the Thoughts have kept getting worse and quite truthfully i really hoped it wasn't what i thought it was but i think i'm out of excuses. i am lucky to be surrounded by trans people in my social circle but have few male friends in general, cis or trans. of the few transmascs/nbs i do know, nearly all are sort of... pierced folkpunks or clubrats or improv club members and i'm trying to be on more of an Anthony Bourdain wavelength. i love those friends dearly but i don't think i know anyone that feels how i feel about being a man. my fear is that even if i transition i'll still just look and feel like a caricature.