hm... idk if im apl or not
okay so like i love making friends and when i see people sometimes im like oh my god we should be friends!!!
now you may be thinking huhh? then are you really aplatonic??? but like my relationship with making friendships is weird.
none of my friends bring me the joy i truly want and i usually get into many friendships just so i could not get bored. i talk to people so i'm not bored. i think making friends is the easiest way to talk to others about our interests so i don't get bored.
whenever i see people with common interests i remember my chronic boredom and go maybe they have interesting stuff to say! yet i never have the desire to get to know anyone unless i think they're interesting. except that feeling is the same way i look at interesting media (games, shows, movies, books, etc.) and go "i want to learn more about it it looks so interesting omg" and eventually it burns off just as quickly. did i mention i'm neurodivergent. yeah i think being nd does contribute a lot to it.
i dont truly feel connected with any of my friends and it just feels like its gonna stay that way cause all i care about is to find something interesting everyday. does anyone feel the same? idk if its just me. and i wonder if i can call myself aplatonic or not. just wondering!