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Shot in the dark, but There was this artist called Ben David that I found super comforting and I can’t find any of his songs on Spotify or YouTube anymore. He had barely any monthly listeners so I don’t think a lot of people would know what happened. If anyone knows where I can listen to his music again, that’d be much appreciated!!

Song names: (I think the album was called far off gaze)

Blueberry Island

Continental drift

A note on the text

Songbird darling

I’m starting college this fall, and as a graduation gift, my parents want to buy me a laptop. They wanted to know which one I wanted, but I have no clue what’s best. Any good recommendations for a laptop that performs well in both gaming and work related stuff? I have no preferences, but would prefer something inexpensive, and that’s not too big, but not too small.

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Before watching the videos, I had been in a depressive slump for weeks upon weeks. None of my meds worked, I was violent and explosive towards others, I relapsed back into my nicotine addiction, and I hadn’t felt any true emotion in weeks. I hate hate hate the fact that I’m subscribed to gore pages, and seeing people’s remains sprawled out and mangled all over my screen. They don’t deserve to have strangers on the internet obsessed with their dead bodies, they deserve to rest in peace. But I can’t stop, I keep consuming more and more so that I know that I’m still human, or that I’m still salvageable. These days I see videos of people cut in half or beheaded and feel nothing. I never felt anything before, I was intrigued. My own thoughts and actions scare me, but I tell anyone, I fear that I’ll be sent to a facility, or be placed on high high doses of medication and all my freedom will be taken away. I’m a monster.