u/DireDegenerate

Newly single have an 8 month old who is starting to express herself in every way and I just start to realize I’m the boring one. I have her about 75% of the time besides my mom best friend and ex. But when I’m not with her I’m working so while I’m home I’m cooking cleaning pumping and doing everything so I feel bad she’s just … there watching. Playing in the back ground. She’s amazing at self play but I feel terrible I feel like I’m the boring one. The one day she goes to dads a week he has a whole village of people to play and take care of her. I feel like a failure like she’s going to grow up and think I’m boring or that I’m abandoning her:/

I feel I’ve been in a sleep experiment for almost 2 months now. When baby was born she was PERFECT sleeper would only wake to feed not even cry when she pooped just whined it was a dream. Husband was useless but it was manageable. Now at 8 months single and dealing with thing after thing I feel like I’m doing everything wrong. She slept thru the night FULLY for the second time then it went to shiet. Things that happened in order
First diaper rash(MIL and ex don’t know how to change a diaper in time)
Then she fell out of a bed so started crib training ( still feel like the worst mother for this)
Then she got her first tooth
THEN little one gets sick … and gets me sick too then I get norovirus literally two days after getting sick so now I have to disinfect my whole house all while working dealing with her waking up every 30 minutes. But even after 4-5 weeks of this she still isn’t sleeping longer then 2-3 hour stretches and that’s on a Good night. Wtf do I do or am I just doomed.