u/DirectionArtistic617

Now that I'm really over this religion for quite a few months, it's becoming so damn hard to live in this country. It's suffocating. It's hard to not be impulsive and get myself into useless debates, i can't even Scream it out loud that I AM NOT MUSLIM. Every WhatsApp status is islamic verses. People send me deeni reels in DMs ("yeh ayat 10 dafa parho shaam tk khuskhabri" or "iss soorat ko roz parhne se dajjal se panah milay gi") Their conversation starts with deen and ends with deen They have got absolutely no intelectual logic orr operrr se Kehte hain "Jab khuda ne keh dia toh hum kon hote hain" 😭 Like Dude You are a fkin HUMAN BEING With a Conscious Mind.

Do you guys feel the same? And how do you guys manage to not act on impulse?

I'm 18F and i was studying in a really expensive university on honhaar scholarship, if it weren't for honhaar i could have never afford it, but i messed it all up.

I had a Breast Lump for quite some while (years actually) and i was just afraid to tell my parents about it because i thought what if it turns out to be Cancerous. But then I decided to tell them in Summerbreak after coming back to home.

The threshold to continue the scholarship was 2.7 CGPA and i got 2.69 in 2nd sem that too Because i was in intense pain and stress during exams because of that lump, but i still would have been over 2.7 but a stupid professor messed up my grade i fkin hate her.

According to the plan after a week at home i got enough courage to tell them and my surgery was scheduled next month. But I'm stuck because of the result now...i have got two options:

the first is to pay the fee of the subject i messed up and improve it, it'll bring my grade above the threshold but I'll have to go back to the hostel this Summerbreak.

The second option is to not go in summer and they'll discontinue my scholarship for the 3rd sem and after i bring my grade above threshold it'll continue in 4rth sem but my parents will have to pay the fee of 3rd sem which is approx 10X of the fee of single subject they'll have to pay in summer and no way they can afford it.

This has to be the worst summer of my life so far.

I turned 18 last March and i just realized that I've not done a single mature thing in my entire life, abb umarr ka takaza hai k samjhdarr batein karein...

Nah, i was kidding... I've absolutely no plans to stop mastikhori 😁😂. Actually i was deep in thoughts that I'm still unemployed and single, and i don't have my own car, and dream bike a beautiful bangla, guess what happened next, i realized that I'm still fuckin' 18 😂😂😂