u/Disastrous-Pain-8944

Where are some places in Tampa/Brandon that offer free/inexpensive lectures?

It’s currently 12:15 am. I’m writing this in tears as my husband tries for the umpeenth time tonight to put our son back to sleep.
Our son is about to be 17 months old. He has coslept since birth and breastfed up until a week ago. It was a very restless night for him and something snapped in me to say “no more boob, cold turkey”. We’ve been trying since December to have him in his own room but that’s unsuccessful, whether it’s screaming crying or eventually flat out getting up and coming to our room, it just hasn’t worked.
Tonight I’m at a breaking point. I’m trying to keep in mind, he’s a baby! He just wants comfort. But I’m growing this resentment and anger during the bedtime process. He. Won’t. Stay. Asleep. I see other people say their kid sleeps all night or only wakes 1-2 times. He’s legit up like every 30minutes to an hour. Sometimes it’s quick back to sleep. Sometimes you have to rock him for an hour just for him to erupt on transferring. I know not having his comfort boob to sleep is a change but we’ve been doing a warm bottle to bed for at least 2 months. He’s in daycare from 9am to about 4:45 with a 2 and a half hr nap. Goes down to bed by 9pm. I just don’t know what to do at this point. I’m struggling. My husband says “he’s feeling your fustration, calm down” I CANT CALM DOWN IF ITS TAKING ME HOURS TO PUT HIM TO SLEEP! Yes, we take turns to soothe him but if he’s in sleep at 8:30pm and we’re in there until 1am only for him to scream at 1:30 when we finally put our foot down and refuse to go back, how can I be calm?! I’m exhausted. Even tonight I tried 0.5mg of melatonin. Didn’t do a thing but make him sleepy sooner but not stay asleep.

I need help bad. I don’t want to resent my baby, he’s trying to figure it out but I’m so tired of this.

EDIT: thank you all for the support, encouragement and all the advice! Last night was rough , I gave in around 2am after giving him an applesauce pouch and water and even more cuddles. Brought him back to bed where he continued to cry until about 3 and knocked out the rest of the night. I put the rail back up this morning once they left for daycare so he’s restricted from getting out of bed. Also, my husband and I talked, we will be starting our bedtime routine at 6:30 to hopefully have him down by 7:30. I will update later on 😊