u/DisastrousCommand516

The peace I find by the water is like no other. Being a pisces it helps me rejuvenate my soul’s energy. I look for pretty rocks the ones that catch my eye. I listen to the water flow, hear the birds, the wind singing in the trees. The leafs dancing it’s magical to me. It’s calm. Society is fast paced and time sensitive. When I’m by the water it’s nature’s pace. Slow peaceful natural. The way humans have made an unnatural way to survive bothers my soul. There is no peace. Nature is the true source of life, the way it talks to me means everything to me. The love I feel is pure when I’m with nature. Nothing is forced it just flows naturally. I am so happy I have reconnected my soul with the natural flow of nature. I’ll forever be it’s that deep type of person. My soul feels the depth. The chaos, the fast paced world. It disappears in the depth of nature, the natural.

See I likem crazy. Obsessed but sensitive and gentle. My ex is on my mind today. He ghosted me and I’m left wondering. But it’s for the best I guess. He didn’t really enjoy my company he said he did but his body language acted indifferent. He’s on my minds heavy today wondering where he is and if he’s okay. I think he thought I was tryna snitch on him. As if, I don’t fuck with the police never have but the last time we spoke he had acted suspicious towards me. He knew in his heart I wasn’t the type but the delusional brain he had must of convinced him. Either way I’m ghosted and I keep healing then find a wound. It’s exhausting I wish he’d just let me know he’s okay. I don’t want to bother his friends anymore about it. I guess I just need to keep in mind if he wanted to he would period. Idk if he’s on this site but may the universe show him this if it’s meant to be shown. ☯️

Will I allow myself to want to be loved by the one I love so much to overlook the obvious truth that they couldn’t stand the person I am. Makes me wonder why they would even get with me in the first place. We as people deserve to be loved for who we are. My love is even loving the parts that before we’re deal breakers. Loving with my whole physical spiritual being. He must of needed it at that point in time. I’m glad I was able to give love in the end.

Today is the first day I haven’t viewed his profile or talked about him till now. Although he’s been on my mind all day wondering if he’s okay or where he is. The rage I had about the situation hasn’t been felt today thats important. I do miss him very much and I think I always will.

Memories of you on repeat.
Trying to accept defeat.
Giving in to my pain would help it release.
Staying strong and standing tall with my two feet.
Talk to me.
Open your heart to me.
Let me in, your world is cold and cuts through skin.
I would bare the pain you hold deep within.
Don’t lose me again.

Well it’s time to move forward, no need to be sad. I won’t suffer anymore over a lie.Just gonna keep rollin Rollin rollin🤘🤘.

I wish you’d long for me the way I long for you.
Constantly thinking about you, and the way your muscles feel as I explore them with my finger tips. My favorite part is when I follow your collar bone side to side. Usually going up your neck and through your hair. I long for your intimacy. My head laying on your chest letting my eyes close as my hand mesmerizes your muscular frame. So strong inside and out makes me blush with admiration. My mind is lusting for you. My heart desires, you. Your presence is my oasis in the middle of the desert. My peace, my safe place. My love💙💜

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The time has come I finally am able to an accept it wasn’t real. The way you talked about me to others. The way you treated me compared to others. I was a toy, that drew breath. I loved you. You used me, emotionally played me when you were bored. Became mentally abusive when you needed someone to hurt. I understand you. You are loved. Change. ☔️

. I wish we could have seen and trusted each other more.
I could be around you 24:7 and never get bored of you.
The weird off putting vibes were uncalled for, it felt like you pulled away which caused a repulsion effect. That’s why the vibes started to feel like we were suffocating. I wanted to help comfort you and be there for you. But you just kept pulling away. I wish I could change your mind, I’ll fix what you need me too. I love you let’s restart and rediscover eachother?!💙💜