I am 32 F. Graduated in 2017 with and IT engg degree and got placed in a reputed MNC. Joined in early 2018 and laid off in mid 2018 due to failure in internal training exam.
Then I moved to Delhi for UPSC exam preparation.
And till now unemployed and could never crack any prelims in whatsoever exams I appeared.
Got arranged married in 2023. No kids. We are currently residing in Noida. I still carried on my govt job dream and kept on applying to different exams.
Only we both stay here , rest family stay in different state.
Husband ( an IT professional with WFH setup ) used to be a wonderful person but now he has changed.
In last fight he said mean things like I am a freeloader , he might beat me someday , go back to your home etc.
When I called up my father , he reverse scolded me and shouted that you should never ask anything from him. He said " tumko tumhara aukaat bohot pehle hi dikha dena chahiye tha " .
It's been ~3 weeks but I am still not able to cope up with it. I feel betrayed, disrespected and miserable.
This financial depency feels like hell.
I am desperately looking for a job atleast enough to fend for myself and have a sense of dignity.
I have explored a lot of domains but it's very confusing as to what to choose or pursue.
I need some genuine advice on this.
I am ready to work. Even unpaid .. just for the sake of work experience. But I do need a job. Totally open to learn.
Passive work or remote work would be great.
Many a times I have come across negative scenarios related to job market which makes me anxious. I get anxious with the thought that after so much of gap and technically zero skills RN , Am I even employable.
TBH This scares me.