u/Disastrous_Sky_3234

Everytime I read and practice ACIM I feel inner peace. That is all I can say. Im not sure where it will lead me but from time to time I feel my Brother's Love, Jesus the Christ and my Holy Father in my heart, so pure, so strong I want to cry, just by doing the excercises, just by reading him.

Because I am gay I recieved the short end of the stick in religion terms, but now I laugh, not of pity or misery or trying to hurt the people expousing christian "love" i laugh because it is so obvious now that I am loved. Oh so loved. Our dear brother Jesus visited me, hugged me, felt his love so profund I am still out of words.

I was high as a kite in shrooms the first time I felt his presence. It was devastatingly strong. Lasted a minute. After that I ALWAYS feel a strong feeling in my heart of being loved. Where there was once nothing, now there is a dynamo of expressive love. I cannot express the fundamental change I have in understanding our Father.For so long I was fed this idea that I was impure and hated. So fucking long.

Oh lord I am so loved. I cant even express how much this book means to me. I am a practitioner in other types of occult stuff and yes they work, yes it creates "results" but this, this love that survives everything, that is that is, EHEIEH oh so holy and profound.

Every day this book accompanies me, every day it gets so fucking deep. Every day I realize more and more the absolute insanity of a world I created with my perception. I searched for so long, so many cults, so much money wasted, so much effort, and then a woman in a random house in a random village of my home country told me about ACIM. I bought it in february in spanish. It stood there, unread for awhile. And then little by little I read the theory, felt so blasphemous, so insiduous, so anti christian. Where is the hellfire promised to me? Where is the PAIN? Oh my sweet lord, my brothers, this book has changed my life and I am no even on day 100. Godbless. Wanted th share my ramblings.

(published originally in GD)

Dear brothers and sisters,

I am still a baby Neophyte, taking my first steps and learning the lessons by heart: Hebrew, Qabalah, the Elements, the Zodiac, correspondences, Tarot, and the connections within connections.

I have built my altar and continue to learn every day—daily, daily, daily. Through consistency and persistence, as with any endeavor, I know I will be successful. My life HAS changed in so many ways for the better since I performed my first LBRP in February, with Modern Magick in one hand and the other tracing the pentagrams.

Now I know it by heart, along with several other basic rituals. Little by little, I am becoming more knowledgeable and consistently putting what I learn into practice in a way I have never done with anything else in my life.

As I understand it, most magical systems eventually involve working directly with certain entities. I am not interested at all in working with demons or other supposedly “negative” entities, for personal and ethical reasons.

The other option, then, is angels. Yes, they are already involved in most, if not all, of the rituals. However, I know there is another system that may be very beneficial to me in the future: Enochian. For now, though, this interest is more of an aspiration. I do not want to rush into it.

My dear Fraters and Sorors, I may be getting far ahead of myself, but I would like to begin studying and practicing Enochian next Good Friday, following the example of our dear Frater John Dee.

I own Aaron Leitch’s three volumes on Enochian. I have read two of them, somewhat understood them, and intend to read and reread them until I have mastered the theoretical material before even beginning anything practical. The third one is literally a dictionary of Angelic so it will be harder to tackle.

My questions are these: Do any kind Fraters or Sorors here practice Neo-Enochian—or, even better, traditional Enochian? If you feel comfortable sharing, I would like to know how you have fared with it and what you needed to do in preparation.

Did you create the Book of Loagaeth from scratch using pen and paper, or did you simply print it? What differences have you experienced between Neo-Enochian and “pure” Enochian?

Neo-Enochian seems much more familiar to me because of its Golden Dawn structure, but eventually I would like to explore and practice both.

Thank you for your guidance,

Godbless,

Dear brothers and sisters,

I am still a baby Neophyte, taking my first steps and learning the lessons by heart: Hebrew, Qabalah, the Elements, the Zodiac, correspondences, Tarot, and the connections within connections.

I have built my altar and continue to learn every day—daily, daily, daily. Through consistency and persistence, as with any endeavor, I know I will be successful. My life HAS changed in so many ways for the better since I performed my first LBRP in February, with Modern Magick in one hand and the other tracing the pentagrams.

Now I know it by heart, along with several other basic rituals. Little by little, I am becoming more knowledgeable and consistently putting what I learn into practice in a way I have never done with anything else in my life.

As I understand it, most magical systems eventually involve working directly with certain entities. I am not interested at all in working with demons or other supposedly “negative” entities, for personal and ethical reasons.

The other option, then, is angels. Yes, they are already involved in most, if not all, of the rituals. However, I know there is another system that may be very beneficial to me in the future: Enochian. For now, though, this interest is more of an aspiration. I do not want to rush into it.

My dear Fraters and Sorors, I may be getting far ahead of myself, but I would like to begin studying and practicing Enochian next Good Friday, following the example of our dear Frater John Dee.

I own Aaron Leitch’s three volumes on Enochian. I have read two of them, somewhat understood them, and intend to read and reread them until I have mastered the theoretical material before even beginning anything practical. The third one is literally a dictionary of Angelic so it will be harder to tackle.

My questions are these: Do any kind Fraters or Sorors here practice Neo-Enochian—or, even better, traditional Enochian? If you feel comfortable sharing, I would like to know how you have fared with it and what you needed to do in preparation.

Did you create the Book of Loagaeth from scratch using pen and paper, or did you simply print it? What differences have you experienced between Neo-Enochian and “pure” Enochian?

Neo-Enochian seems much more familiar to me because of its Golden Dawn structure, but eventually I would like to explore and practice both.

Thank you for your guidance,

Godbless,

I have just joined Narcotics Anonymous. I know the LBRP can be used to separate this type of energy. Has someone here had this type of practice and how did you manage your personal rituals in overcoming addiction. Any angel work? Thank you fraters and sorors. Any advice is welcome. Godbless.

Contexto, estuve en CDMX por 5 años. La movilidad publica, las instituciones culturales, la comida, la facilidad de hacer amigos nuevos incluso para alguien tan introvertido como yo fue como beber agua fresca después de salir de un desierto.

Regreso a Guatemala para construir unos negocios con un amigo y primero Dios, ser independiente y no tener que trabajar para una empresa.

Pero ha sido tan difícil salir, conocer a gente nueva. Siento que la gente aquí es super cerrada.

Además tengo 34 años y soy homosexual. Entonces está duro eso de hacer nuevos círculos de amigos cuando mi comunidad solo quiere hookups y pasarla bien un rato. Sin hablar de lo absurdo de leer que hay problemas por la marcha del orgullo, como si estuviéramos todavía en 1984.

Me siento como encerrado en Fraijanes, sin carro, sin familia (por ser gay), y sin un grupo de amigos para salir de peda. Extraño mi México Mágico pero prefiero ser independiente y tener lana para espero un día pronto tener casa propia, y así.

Pero me da como crisis pensar que vivo encerrado, aunque sea momentáneo y pues dejar ir lo que queda de mi juventud en armar algo bueno, que va a llevar esfuerzo. Quisiera pues armar un grupo de amigos gays. Sentirme parte de la comunidad. En fin.

Trigger Warning, I talk about abuse. Please read at your own discretion.

For the last four years, I have been using the pendulum heavy. Really thought my Higher Self or something similar was moving it for me. I have read about the Ideomotor effect. I am doing it with my eyes closed and then open it to review what is being answered. I have had beautiful "syncronicities" about taking decisions with the pendulum, if you can call it that.

Because of the pendulum I got a yes about SAd and my own father. Found out about it at first because I was going to all my ex partners, cutting cords and forgiving them and doing the ho'oponopono mantra to great success. I was feeling better and better. I asked if someone was missing, because it was showing me that from 7 partners, hookups, whatever, one was missing. And I had no idea who it was.

And then it went to father. Father. Father. Father. Insistently. I have a circle in which there is father, mother, myself, family, person of authority, someone else., ect.

I then confirmed it in therapy, I had a weird dream in which well, I was being done something awful. In therapy, little by little memories started to surface in which I will not share here. There are confusing and painful. Then with "energy work" with an "energy coach" or whatever, I went into myself to a place in which it was dark and impossible to "scan". Like black dots inside me. Until they unraveled and cleared.

I felt my younger self confusion, how my father was no longer interested in me the older I got, until it stopped and how I yearned for his "love". How I told my mother when I was little and she did not believe me and even felt she was encouraging it or even a part of it.

The pendulum helped me with that, helped me uncover it. Even told me the ages. Even told me how to "heal it". The information i got was very heavy and I felt so distraught and depressed I got into antidepressants. Desvenlafaxine for three months until I stopped last year in January.

What Im trying to say is that I am confused as hell. Love performing magic, the rituals, sometimes I feel a flux of energy that my Agnostic mind cannot comprehend. And also trying to read more about how to not bullshit myself. Not sure if I am making it all up, its in my head and I am crazy schizo. Or if there is a sliver of hope and the whole system is real. Doing Golden Dawn, even have an altar and the swords and the wands (built it a month ago with a carpenter). LBRP, LBRH, CC, etc. All of these rituals greatly improve my mood and focus. How do I know I am not confusing myself? What is real? What is not real? How do we even know? Is it real if only I have this information and my family vehemently denies it? Are my memories of the SA real? Am I being gaslit? Am I on the right track? Am I making it all up? Who knows.