Calmness in thinking I’m dead
I think I have anxiety and depression, I overthink a lot, like a lot a lot, and feel worthless a lot aswell even though by normal standards I’m doing pretty well in life. I have usually always struggled a lot to turn off when I’m trying to sleep, but for a while now when I’m trying to sleep I have been thinking about being dead, I’m not even sure if that’s the right word, imagining my self being dead maybe? (not thinking about ways of killing myself) just being dead. Nothing, darkness, no thoughts, eternal oblivion, and that feeling brings great calmness in me and has been getting me to sleep pretty quickly. Has anyone else experienced this? It is concerning me a little but I can’t stop, it is truly calming, peaceful, blissful. Is it something I should be concerned about? I don’t think I’d ever hurt myself. But the feeling of not having to think and be in this plane of existence is becoming addicting.