u/Distinct_Row5384

I 22(M )had to quit my job and focus on my exams and left the place on good terms with them.

After a month they called and asked if I was gonna join after my exams, at this time I was feeling terrible not contributing to my family and being financially dependent and there was a huge family drama always on how I'm not good enough, so I said I can start tomorrow. They were good and told me not to waste my attempt but then agreed with me.

After 2 days I realised that it was a terrible decision and I can't manage shit, I had to work from 10.00 am till 8.00pm and I'd reach home by 9.00 ish and would be exhausted despite having a desk job that I couldn't study. Decided to come clean and apologize but was a Lil scared that they would taunt me but had to do it. Talked with my dad and he said just call and explain and there is no need to go, long story short me and dad got in an argument and I was like fine.. but due to the heat of the moment I called my boss and said "I can't come and have broken my foot in an accident, I'm sorry, I can't continue working" he said nothing and hung up.

After 2 months he called again and asked if my foot was any better in a way like he was onto me and I can't lie for the life of me and was super guilty this entire time so I came clean and he was like "could've said that from the start" and hung up.

I still feel the guilt. I know I'm wrong but even after admitting my mistake I feel the guilt.

I am 22(M) and this year so far has been hella crazy. Like first my dad had a heart attack and barely survived and I'm so grateful for that. Later I had to quit my job and focus on my exams and left the place on good terms with them.

After a month they called and asked if I was gonna join after my exams, at this time I was feeling terrible not contributing to my family and being financially dependent and there was a huge family drama always on how I'm not good enough, so I said I can start tomorrow. They were good and told me not to waste my attempt but then agreed with me.

After 2 days I realised that it was a terrible decision and I can't manage shit, I had to work from 10.00 am till 8.00pm and I'd reach home by 9.00 ish and would be exhausted despite having a desk job that I couldn't study. Decided to come clean and apologize but was a Lil scared that they would taunt me and but had to do it. Talked with my dad and he said just call and explain and there is no need to go, long story short me and dad got in an argument and I was like fine.. but due to the heat of the moment I called my boss and said "I can't come and have broken my foot in an accident, I'm sorry, I can't continue working" he said nothing and hung up.

After 2 months he called again and asked if my foot was any better in a way like he was onto me and I can't lie for the life of me and was super guilty this entire time so I came clean and he was like "could've said that from the start" and hung up.

I still feel the guilt. I know I'm wrong but even after admitting my mistake I feel the guilt.

Then my funds which I had saved while I was working exhausted and i couldn't hang out with my friends, which I believed were good. But they were not and ungrateful and told me If I couldn't contribute around 60 bucks for a game they wouldn't talk to me and I would be kicked out of the friend group despite knowing that I have little to no money. 60 bucks and that's it. I've spent hundreds on them while I was working just cuz they were my friends, even helped people who couldn't buy shi, always was kind didn't wanted anything except for them to understand my situation and not take me for granted.

My girlfriend after being three years with me cheated on me with her ex on my birthday cuz apparently her feelings came back for him when she saw her ex again and being with him makes her forget completely about me.i don't know what to say..

I don't know how to fix everything it's like everything I had is gone. I have the exam in September and I'm trying to prep like hell but these things keep on getting worse which makes studying harder, and I feel so guilty and ashamed and useless, I miss the days when everything was perfect I had a good job, good money, good friends, family was healthy and happy and a loving girlfriend.

I have lost interest in my hobbies and can't even listen to songs cuz nothing feels the same anymore.

I wish if I was smarter i maybe would've handled things better.