u/DixieDingooo

I'm applying to a local gas station fuck this fuckass job lmao

Context: I work for a dog groomer that owns a small business. The place is decrepit and she is very racist. And mean. She has her nice moments, so I was trying to be nice when I could. But then! This shit happened. Along with several ass Asian accents, her calling Asians "Orientals", and making a joke about me "not wanting the colors to be segregated" because I accidentally dumped the vacuum on the floor.

Fuck! I said fuck this fuckass job! The gas station folks like me a lot and said they'd pull my shit quickly. So fuck it!

thank you, u/Son_o_Sparda for giving me the prompt and kicking my ass into finishing a piece for the first time in years :D

Would have shaded it, but I decided to keep it like this cause I like it better, and I would've had to re-do the black areas in order to achieve a specific look. This is just me getting back into it.

I'm trying so hard to understand and try not to get into trouble. My boss is being nicer to me. She's an older woman, and her friend is also older. Veteran who got blown up like four times, is blind, in a wheelchair (they're both white) just giving me this long story about how he was deployed to Africa once and how a buddy of his mentioned he was african American and he (my boss's friend) said, "you won't want to identify as that when we get back." And yeah, the dude laid an African dude flat when they got back apparently and made a whole thing about being American only, and I just. First of all, what country was this? They kept describing a country where people were being like hurt and killed in the streets at night. Where women couldn't make eye contact with people or they'd be beaten. I don't doubt there's places like that, but they were talking as if it were the entire place. No care to make any distinction between cultures and countries.

And what makes it harder is I'm half black and half dominican (genuine indigenous ancestry if you wanna debate about it talk to a wall!!) and like my own *dad* said to me once that "when I'm with him" I'm "only dominican." And I just. I'm so fucking tired. I'm tearing up writing this I'm so fucking tired I just wanna be accepted and not have to talk about these fucking things. Goddamn.

Dog grooming notes to make it interesting :0 I'm 25 and genderfluid