u/DookieMaxxer

All right show me and my best friend are both male and 21 and we both live in different states and for the past few months, we’ve been talking about me moving up to where he is. And recently, I have been planning to make just a quick trip up there to go see him as well as some other very close friends, and I asked if I could crash at his place for the week and he said sure and so it’s a week before I’m supposed to come up and I text him a couple of times trying to get an answer out of him to see if I’m still able to stay over and after a couple of days he says no he’s busy and he can’t really let me stay over for the week. And I said you know what that’s fine get it. It sucks but I get it and so I go to some of my other close close friends that I’m also going to go visit and they said yes, absolutely and so I kind of am just thinking because of a lot of past issues if I should rent an apartment with him still. My reasons being is because with the childhood friend I don’t really talk to him as much because usually he doesn’t pick up my calls a lot of the time and he’s just never really there. And my other close friends that let me stay at their house have been pitching the idea of three of us getting an apartment together looking up places we could rent apartments and everything and I talk with them fairly frequently play games with them and etc., and so I’m just kind of at a predicament of how I should tell my childhood friend that I just don’t want to rent an apartment with them like I still care for him deeply. The guy is like a brother to me, but I just don’t want to rent an apartment with with him so I just need advice

All right so to start this off I am 21 years old and Mail and for a good chunk of my life I’ve had a lot of anxiety. I still do but specifically towards using the restroom. I only would ever use the bathroom in my own house. Specifically the bathroom next to my bedroom mostly because yeah it was a safe space for me too release the beast, but calling back two times where I was still very heavy with anxiety is whenever I was going on a trip with family and we were away from my house. We were in Florida going to Universal and the entire time while we were there, I don’t think I ever use the restroom to poop once. First of all just because I was just afraid of what everyone passing a questionable look at me as I exit the bathroom stall and so for about a week, I just didn’t poop and I tell you what it was probably one of the most agonizing weeks of my life and it didn’t help that we were constantly stopping at places to eat as well as me being in a lot of very hot and dark black clothing, and to say it was a relief whenever we got done with the trip and finally got home would be an understatement like I’m not going to get too deep into it, I don’t think I’ve cried tears of relief before. Let you know after that I don’t know how but I started to get more comfortable doing my business in public restroom, specifically if the toilets look clean enough, and I would wait until all of the people have either left or if I was alone. And I’ve managed to make great strides in not repeating the Orlando universal trip but as of the past year, I don’t know what’s happened to me, but something in my twisted mind has just turned me into a little bit of a goofball for the most part and so one day I just was like it’d be really funny if I just unleashed a demon in this very busy bathroom. And that’s exactly why I did. I just let go of all my fear and anxiety and I just let it rip and it was probably one of the funniest things I ever did at least in my head and so ever since then I’ve always looked forward to laying out the most devastating demon from my rear at any given moment.