u/DoubleImprovement653

throwback to almost 4 months ago (details are very vague, i know), i noted that i zoned out and missed instructions in class

however looking back i feel like i was overreacting and now i feel like this was caused by overuse of short form videos. but i don't use that much of my devices in my free time.

something doesn't add up, but that would be jumping to conclusions.

i have been through months comparing myself to adhd symptoms.

so more than a month ago i wrote an email to my school's guidance office.

they scheduled a meeting a few days later and i went (after going, i didn't get that much help).

they said they would do a check up meeting with me again a day before march break starts (spoiler, my dumbass forgot about it).

they replied a few days and they called in my mother and the vice principal and they suggested i get evaluated by a professional (i have no idea what my mom said for them to suggest that).

unfortunately, it has already been almost 4 whole months since i ever heard anything about an assessment.

i think i'm being too self aware and it feels like i'm noticing stuff that wasn't there before and after all that it feels like im lying to myself

last time i asked to schedule an assessment was a month ago. seems like my parents still have to check with their insurance company.

however, 3 months later, still nothing has happened, and to make it worse, my mother's dad got sick back in china and my dad is going there too, in a few days

i'd probably say that i had been only surviving at school by pure luck and previous knowledge about those subjects, my grades are dropping, i don't know what's happening anymore,

i keep feeling like the older i get, the more responsibilities i have, whatever this is, anxiety or something, it's gonna catch up to everything i like, my life, everything, it's going to fall apart.

can someone please, suggest what i can do?