u/Double_Conflict23

Dear Brothers and Sisters, you will have many kinds of troubles. But this gives you a reason to be very happy. You know that when your Faith is tested, you learn to be patient in suffering. If you let that patience work in you, the end result will be good. You will be mature and complete. You will be all that GOD wants you to be.

How should I deal with SPIRITUAL dryness in my life?

My life is chaotic my thoughts are loud. I feel like my vocal cords in side my head are stretched and I sound like a kid. I’ll be (36) in July I’m single never married have no kids. And for some reason I can’t separate my life to the comparison of other people’s opinion. Like I can’t even be happy being myself because other people’s opinion of me is stealing my joy and confidence. I’m trying to create a life I don’t have to run away from. And I feel like I’m still running away from myself. Like my purpose is to please you because pleasing myself doesn’t matter as much. What a wierd existence if I’m not struggling with one internal mountain it’s another mountain right after it. Why am I miserable? Why is my motivation slowing down? Why do I only care about my job? Why don’t I vacation? Why don’t I want to make myself happy?

I just realized that I’ll never feel the pure creative feeling of what it feels like to type a story out on a type writer. When I was a kid mashing those buttons creating a story on paper from my mind was surreal. What do you think kids today get that feeling from?

So I’ve been working overnights the past month for my jobs inventory team and I can tell that my anxiety and level of pressure I get from this very busy store has decreased.

Because the store closes and there are no customers, it’s just you and the freight. Scheduled breaks and lunch times help break up the shifts and make the week go by rarely quickly.

I’m trying to move up to the overnights management position. I think I have a good coarse of action and direction I’m going to take. It all depends on if they see me as a asset or a threat. I’m sure it’ll come down to that. Wish me luck as I move into this new direction in my career.