How are you supposed to get clothes if you're cut off from the outside world?
Like I'm pretty sure a good chunk of us are just stuck at home because we don't have proper clothing leave the house especially with it becoming summer time not having proper clothes can literally lead to a heat stroke.
Like realistically how does that work?
Genuinely wondering
Like I've seen some of us actually genuinely grow in this environment, like genuinely become beast in certain skills and actually be able to enter the world and be able to survive longer than a day.
And I've seen some of us become so disheveled that some of us can't even walk not because of any physical trauma or anything just because our brain stopped being able to use our legs.
It's almost concerning how some of us are actually legitimately disabled for life because of this and a lot of us are somehow thriving it's such a strange spectrum.
I somehow made it out all f up in the head but able to understand how to study and stuff like that so I'm not completely hopeless but my god I am scared of ending up on the other side of the spectrum everyday.
Okay so for anybody who knows me I made the choice to be home schooled and I've been regretting it for years since age 16 I entered depression and now I'm trying to be more positive instead of looking at it like a light ruining thing I see it as a alternative to live life.
I'm trying to adopt a more it doesn't matter when I learn this information it just matters that I know it attitude and I'm trying to be more proactive in fixing my life instead of romanting over ruining my life.
Quite frankly this attitude has been making me happier lately and making life feel a lot better, my own thoughts are still quite dark and scary but I'm choosing to forgive myself because quite frankly I've came to the conclusion this shit would have happened with or without me and punishing myself is not going to do anything.
Bro you guys ever just be minding your business and then somebody from your past literally comes back says that they knew the whole time that they were sending people to you to abuse you and make you feel horrible about yourself while you were trapped in your house and now you don't know how to cope with your trauma because a piece of your coping mechanism was basically saying well if I acted differently I wouldn't be in the situation but they admit it to doing that to me either way and they didn't give a fuck and didn't humanize me at all and now my only copy mechanism is basically gone?
Bro you guys ever just be minding your business and then somebody from your past literally comes back says that they knew the whole time that they were sending people to you to abuse you and make you feel horrible about yourself while you were trapped in your house and now you don't know how to cope with your trauma because a piece of your coping mechanism was basically saying well if I acted differently I wouldn't be in the situation but they admit it to doing that to me either way and they didn't give a fuck and didn't humanize me at all and now my only copy mechanism is basically gone?
I said something inhumane that I can never really repeat about a younger version of myself basically when I was a kid I was given full control over for my life and I ended up killing like a lot of people by indirect accent.
(My grandparents my mom my sister, etc)
About over six people and now I hate myself so much that I genuinely can't bring myself to see reason when I'm talking about myself to the point that I'll say unhinged things I don't actually mean or things I don't actually want to do.
To be clear I would never do something horrible to a innocent person I have no means to and I don't want to and quite frankly if I had the ability to I would instantly give that ability up because I'm not a horrible person who wants to hurt innocent people if it was an innocent person I would not care enough to do something to that person I mean purely to myself.
Like if you put me in a room with a younger version myself I would definitely murder that version of myself because I genuinely indirectly led to the deaths of like six people and I can't live with that guilt and shame and pain anymore
Take any clothes, it doesn't matter if it's yours or somebody else's if you're older than 15 walk out the door and see what happens I just want to know what would happen if somebody left the house without permission I know for a fact that I would get this shit out of me and I would not survive being homeless.
Which is why I don't mean the house because my worst fear is not having a reason to leave the house my dad checking my location and then I'm kicked out the house.
Like actual acts of abuse is not having clothing that fits you,no phone number, no way of accessing the internet (or ethernet) in a consistent meaningful way,
No work text books,
Access to disability software (tts who lack reading comprehension for individuals who like reading comprehension is very important).
If you are legally adult or have reasonable ability to believe that you're an adult if you lack your legal papers.
You can call adult protective services and if you word it to make it seem like you're calling it on yourself because you self neglected your parents can't use it against you or use it to punish you.
Basically how I would word it is:
Help I'm an adult with low reading comprehension and I willingly chose to educationally neglect myself and I don't know how to help myself.
I currently live with my parents but I am neglecting myself and they cannot help.
If you have access to any form of a telephone or the internet you can report yourself to the actual adult protective services and get yourself help, genuinely everything I just listed above is a real form of abuse and can actually genuinely inhibit your life.
Like genuinely some of you guys have been abused so bad that you need to become property of the actual State and if you're under the age of 21 and older than 16 you really should call.
They legally need to house you and genuinely take care of you if you have extreme disability and they can't cut your access to the internet if you're cognitively aware enough to be on the internet.
This seems like a very extreme solution to this problem that we all have but like some of you guys need to learn how to word things and just call the cops on yourself, like looking at the subreddit especially grown adults who are not allowed outside the house you need to start calling adult protective services.
I promised if one of my friends disappeared for longer than 14 days because of our horrible life situation I would call the cops, honestly I feel like a lot of us need to find close online friends and do the same thing because I don't think you guys get how many people die during homeschooling and never are discovered.
Even if you hate that person that one person disappearing is still a big deal because imagine all the sociopaths you're sitting next to who literally killed somebody even if you hate that person the fact that person killed somebody should be important
There used to be this product where you could put it on your dark neck and it would break it down, then when you peel that all of the dark skin came off with it and yeah the under skin would be inflamed but for a few days you had normal skin on the neck.
Basically , I used to use this product all the time and it was weird and jelly-like and then all of the skin would come off and it would be light for a while and eventually come back.
It's almost impossible to lose weight and it's still there when I cut sugar
Like not because I hate my family they weren't abusive but they did keep me from the outside world I would have ran away and learned how to figure it out hell I'm still planning on it I'm not actually running away from my family I just want to figure it out
Anybody here want to be vent on discord or something?
18+ bc I vent about drugs and stuff and I don't want to be responsible because somebody hears me mending about drugs and then they decide to do crazy shit because I can't use their brain for 15 minutes to
Does anybody low-key feel like if they just put like some effort they could learn the basics of a school subject like on the low if they just put in a lot of effort into math they could pass as a normal human being for like at least like 2 years