Why is it so hard for something so short?
We dated for 4 weeks. First date, we are EATING each others, everything's great.
Then comes the lovebombing, of course. We say it's a bit unhealthy jokingly and we slow it down but we talk everyday. We see each other several times a week.
Everything's great.
But then, tonight, after 2 days of barely talking, I insist she talks to me. She talks about past traumas, needing space, not being emotionnaly available.
2 days earlier we had the best night ever.
This is why it's so hard. What happened ? Why ?
I'm not stupid, I know all the bullshit about the "need space" thing as I did it myself (I'm 28M), but it hurts.
It hurts because before tonight we had something great going on.
It hurts because I only think about what could have been and not what has been.
It hurts because I talked to her everyday every minute and I have no replacement for that.
It hurts because I'm sick now, didn't leave m'y appartment for the day and I feel lonlier than ever.