feeling used and stupid
my boyfriend of 6 years broke up with me about 2 weeks ago and its been tough going from being okay to being not so okay.
i know this is bad but i was still logged into his email when he broke up with me and the week he broke it off with me he had made a reservation at the casino hotel..
about 6 months ago he had a severe gambling addiction im talking about going everyday type of thing. to cut a long story short he lost well over 100k, and guess who had to face those consequences? me. and his mom. but me being an idiot helped him with everything i could because in my mind this was the man i was going to have a future with and when he was hurt, i was hurt. so i helped him financially with a lot. he worked his ass off these passed 6 months and i have been keeping him out of the casino but i think that was bothering him. genuinely if he broke up with me BECAUSE of the want to go to the casino im more hurt than what he said was the reason.
he broke up with me out of the blue, at least for me it was. all i have been doing these past few months since that happened is supported him emotionally and financially if he needed something trust me i was there. he tells me he is unhappy with himself and our relationship and i tried so hard to just get him to talk to me but he wouldn't and the last thing i want to do is beg to be loved, even when i feel like i have deserved that love.
i just dont understand how someone can throw away 6 years like its nothing to them, he hasnt even reached out to me and this passed weekend he blocked me on social media, what is the reason? i havent even texted him.