u/Downtown-File-6361

Hi my ex ended up almost 2yrs relationship, after 18days my cousin saw him on Tinder.. i felt shocked after 18days he already moved on. while i’m here still grieving😳

I feel embarrassed even writing this, but I’m struggling tonight and could really use some outside perspectives.

A few weeks ago my relationship ended very suddenly. The breakup happened during an emotional conversation, and afterward my ex blocked me. The hardest part isn’t even that we’re no longer together—it’s that everything ended with so much hurt, confusion, and so many things left unsaid.

For two weeks I tried to respect the no-contact period, but I couldn’t stop thinking about him. I kept replaying our relationship in my head, wondering what I could have done differently, wishing I could take back some of my reactions and communicate better.

Today I finally sent him a message through another email account. I wasn’t demanding a reply or trying to force reconciliation, and said that I wasn’t angry. I also told him that I wished we could have had a more respectful ending instead of carrying the pain of a bad breakup.
He hasn’t replied.
Now my mind keeps going to the worst places. Maybe he deleted it without reading it. Maybe he read it and didn’t care. Maybe he’s relieved that I’m gone. Maybe he’s completely over me already.
I know nobody here can tell me what he’s thinking. I know silence doesn’t automatically mean one thing. But the uncertainty is so painful. One moment I tell myself to move forward, and the next I’m hoping for a message, an email, anything.
Has anyone else been in a situation where you reached out after a breakup and got silence? How did you stop obsessing over what the silence meant? Did you ever get answers, or did you eventually learn to live without them?

Right now I think that’s what hurts the most—not knowing.