Hi everyone.
Recently, I've had a lot of time to think and realized that I haven't really gotten better or done something about the guilt and remorse I've been feeling -- I was an awful kid in middle school, and somewhere along the way I had forgotten all those memories or that my actions had impacts on others.
I want to make things right. I tried to reach out to those I hurt, but I was unable to (lost contact, blocked numbers, etc.).
I volunteer a lot, and have been for many years. I volunteer with a kids helpline, I've raised money for marginalized communities, and worked as a delivery driver for the elderly -- but it doesn't feel like enough. What more can I do to make an impact?
Also, am I allowed to heal? Am I supposed to? I currently feel like I don't deserve to be better... am I supposed to push myself to get over that? I really am not sure what I should do to be better?
If it were up to me, I probably wouldn't push myself to heal, but a lot of people are depending on me and have invested in me. :')
Thank you all. ❤️