u/Dragonfly_003

What if I decided to just got silent for a while, I would still be on social media, texting but no more real words.. like selective mutism. Just stop talking to everyone well verbally talk.. A big reason is cause of not feeling like I'm heard, seen, no one seems to truly get it. I got diagnosed with a few mental disorders ( PTSD, psychosis, Borderline personality disorder, anxiety, major depressive disorder) so it's a bit harder for me to explain my emotions and tell people what's what, and when I do I come off as a bitch or rude, I dont mean to but I just seem rude yk.. maybe I'm just crazy

So I am a 22 year old female i am in a really good relationship, its been alot better than it was. I have been having really bad ptsd visions, making me freeze up and forget alot.. I have been having like a weird feeling that I should contact someone who deeply hurt me, almost like a calling, but I know I'll just get hurt again.. I feel like im going crazy... I dont wanna mess up this relationship but I also really miss my people yk.. fucks sake though.. my ex fiancé was a good-ish person, we had alot of time as friends, knew him since childhood alot happened, it ended, I got with this bf now and things are good.. sometimes rough.. but thats all relationships I sometimes think I'm overthinking it without anything being wrong... I need new friends