u/Dry-Profession-1160

I started looking into this today but the times I’ve struggled most have been on SSRIs. I stopped taking fluoxetine on my own back in November and my mental health stabilized so much. I didn’t have any cravings for alcohol anymore and I was in control of myself. I still didn’t feel 100%, so that’s why I got put on zoloft. I haven’t been taking it consistently because I go back and forth about if it’s helping me. I haven’t recognized myself, I go from 0 to 100 without even thinking about the escalation, I just escalate. And then it’s just back and forth between anger and despair. I’ve had escalation issues for awhile, but it got better until i started taking this med. But now I don’t know if I’m making it up because I can’t cope with the fact that this could JUST be me acting like this and I’m trying to find any excuse why it might not be. Has this happened to anyone else.

i had a friend reach out to me a couple weeks ago because she needed support. I knew I was her last option and went over there anyways. she didn’t message me much until she needed me during a mental breakdown again yesterday and ushered me out when she felt she was better. hung out with another friend today who talked over me the whole time, and when i asked a question he irritatedly said “i’m getting there stop” i just wanted to disappear. i felt like a sound board, absorbing whatever other people have to say. He didn’t even know where i worked, and i when i told him he asked no questions about me. he talked and talked and talked about his job for hours and whenever i tried to add something like “oh really?” he got 5 x louder to drown out my voice.

This is going to be TMI I’m sorry😭 But I need help. I’ve had reoccurring BV and yeast infections for years. I’ve went to the gyno a few times and they just prescribed me an anti fungal pill and an antibiotic and sent me on my way. Those clear it up for a few weeks but it always comes back and I’m so sick of it. I know if I go to the gyno again they’re just going to prescribe me the same stuff and the bacteria’s going to get stronger. I have good hygiene, I wash the outer part with body wash every shower. I keep it dry down there and shower regularly. I only have protected sex. Like what am I doing wrong? And is there any way to get rid of it without the prescribed pills? I’m so embarrassed because I feel like I smell so bad no matter how much I shower:(