u/Dry_Tumbleweed_3107

As the title said yes I haven't slept yet and recollecting the memories I had.

I do feel like stuck on that one person, i loved her with all my heart and she did too ig. But the moment she blocked me without giving me any prior reasons still haunts me like hell.!!

She was a mallu muslim and I'm just a tamil hindu guy, I thought we are good and we met through socials and she wass elder than me..!!

We were in ldr but somehow made everything work with daily calls and constant checking up on each other.!! She had a brain tumor so i used to take extra care for her..!!

Now what I'm wondering at the middle of the night is did she love me or just used me as a toy? This question keeps on playing in my head.. that too when she left she didn't give me any reasons one day we were talking and the next she blocked me on everything..!!

I get anxiety attacks, i get sleep paralysis, I'm disturbed and depressed thinking about her and how she left me like I'm a nobody 🙃

I had that breakup in jan earlier this year and if you ask me I have still not moved on from her. It was for a short period of time but everything felt right.! I don't know, chatgpt gave me answers on why she left me..

And chatgpt started consoling me, when she didn't.!! I wanted to see the world with her, choose her as my one and only love and what's I got in the end.?? Disappointment and a lot of traumas to carry forward,

Sorry that I vented this much, i couldn't hold it back 🙃

Take care of yourselves peoples ❤️🫶🏼

As the title said yes I haven't slept yet and recollecting the memories I had.

I do feel like stuck on that one person, i loved her with all my heart and she did too ig. But the moment she blocked me without giving me any prior reasons still haunts me like hell.!!

She was a mallu muslim and I'm just a tamil hindu guy, I thought we are good and we met through socials and she wass elder than me..!!

We were in ldr but somehow made everything work with daily calls and constant checking up on each other.!! She had a brain tumor so i used to take extra care for her..!!

Now what I'm wondering at the middle of the night is did she love me or just used me as a toy? This question keeps on playing in my head.. that too when she left she didn't give me any reasons one day we were talking and the next she blocked me on everything..!!

I get anxiety attacks, i get sleep paralysis, I'm disturbed and depressed thinking about her and how she left me like I'm a nobody 🙃

I had that breakup in jan earlier this year and if you ask me I have still not moved on from her. It was for a short period of time but everything felt right.! I don't know, chatgpt gave me answers on why she left me..

And chatgpt started consoling me, when she didn't.!! I wanted to see the world with her, choose her as my one and only love and what's I got in the end.?? Disappointment and a lot of traumas to carry forward,

Sorry that I vented this much, i couldn't hold it back 🙃

Take care of yourselves peoples ❤️🫶🏼

Vazhkai ipdiey poiruma sir, like no relationship no friendship and anything interesting to have.!! Thapu solala evlo naal dha oru manushan nala thaniya oru kootukaleyy adangi iruka mudiyum ? I know elarum soluvinga velila poi veli ulagatha parunga bro, anga ponalum whatever I missed to have they has it all.!! Jealousy nu lam ila ana missing some major things in life, gf ila friend nu solika friend ila.!! This is how a guys life would be in his 20s ig, pengal vaadaiey ilama poiruven pola 🫠 Adhuseri namalukku eniku luck nu onu velai pathu Iruku, elam nasama dhana pogum.!! If any women's who wants to be friends and let out this sigh of relief of mine pls do reach out.!

Yarachu pengal irundhal pesuna nala irukum, vazhkai desert vida mosam ah podhu especially pengal udan.!! I need someone to talk to and be friends withh and Nothing other than that. Yarachu interested ah irundha dm karo or text under this I will msg you..

Nandrigal ❤️🙌🏼

So as you saw in the topic I'm Sad for choosing a person.! Yes eventually to start the story it happened 2 weeks back roughly.

I was scrolling reddit and i found a post and i talked with that person one thing led to another and eventually ended up sharing contact infos.

It felt easier i wanted to approach her as a friend, she posted about her trauma story here.

And initially i wanted only to be her friend and eventually i started falling for her, she knows I put more efforts on her.

But as she is so into her old life she isn't accepting me and I said multiple times to let time decide our future and we shouldn't rush it.

The main key to our relationship is honest talking and I'm doing it eventually even if I think about her i say it to her. I had came clean with my relationship infos, about how my house situation is everything..

Honestly I felt like she's the one, i still do. But sometimes her words hurt me the most, it's Casually mentioned by her but it does create a huge void on my side

And i said it to her multiple times and she does wanna be doing okay with it but eventually does it again.!

She's the one nu thonudhu ana she isn't seeing me as one nu patha I'm taken back.!!

Whatever the conditions i said she was kay with everything, that's why I loved her..

I just wanted to rant as for the past one week I'm crying daily at night due to the words she carry.!!!

I don't know what else to doo. Girls do you have any idea what should I do?

I'm Arv M21,I'm doing my PG. My life is nothing but lot of struggles, suffered through most of it and guess what I never gave up.!!!

Been No contact with women's as it brought a lot of problems, and now I'm at the place where I'm hesitant to talk to women's.!! Looking to Getting to talking to women's friendly and if it goes to a relationship i would be happy.!!!

I mean romba open ah soliten what my requirement is nu, atleast i wanted to be honest on what i wanted.!! So If you want to get more of me, drop a dm or you can talk under this post.!!

Thanks in advance, Thanks ladies if your reading this.!!