I finally came out to my mother
Sorry that this is long. After my father died, it made me realize that life is short and to live it to the fullest. For context, I’ve been struggling with my identity and had been in the closet for years. I always felt uncomfortable in my body and hated looking at myself. I realized I was trans when I experimented women’s clothes and imaging myself as a woman. I hid my preferred identity from my parents and only told a couple of my closest parents.
Flash forward to today. We went to Olive Garden (I took her out to there because it’s her favorite restaurant). After ordering drinks, I nervously came out as trans to her. I told her I want to be a woman. She was shocked to say the least. She didn’t know what to say and at times, it looked like she couldn’t even look me in the eyes. She said she didn’t know what to say and said she wouldn’t see her {my legal name} anymore, but I said she’d still see the kid she raised. I asked if she still loved me the same to which she said of course. The main reason I was so worried is because my mom is of old age. I’m 28 and she’s 69 so our takes on lgbt are probably different. I mean my dad was a bigot who said slurs like it was nothing. She asked some questions, like about my hair, my voice, will I wear heels, will I wear bras, etc. I tried to answer to the best I could. We were so preoccupied that we barely ate our food. In the end, she said she’s not upset but it will take some time getting use to and it’s a lot to take in to which I understand. While it feels like I got a weight off my chest, I’m now nervous about the future. I’m planning on taking her to a pride community center to help her with questions. I’m glad I can now take my first steps to becoming who I wanted to be for so long.