u/DubiousFalcon

Pray for me please

Hi brothers and sisters in Jesus,

I’m humbly asking that all of you remember me in prayer. I’m at a crossroads where the next couple of days will determine the next footsteps I take. I’m overwhelmed and exhausted and I’m having a hard time compared to my baseline. My dog is also sick and was given charcoal and is doing better but he’s not out of the woods yet. I don’t think things have got this bad before, but God is still on the throne.

This might be an odd request for me to ask you all to specifically pray for, but I desire to find someone I can pray with in person. It’s been a long time since I’ve prayed with someone in person and hopefully if it ever happens again it’s with someone who actually loves the Lord and not someone who loves themselves and their ego.

I’ve been so hungry for God. I worship Him in nature and I pray and read His Word. It’s always like I can see the light but there’s always one little barrier I can’t see. I feel like I’m Elijah a lot of days with telling the Lord this is enough. I know God’s heart that He is good and He is a Shepherd to His sheep, but I’m running empty with the words though You slay me I will praise You. Hopefully the Lord will grant some mercy soon because there’s only so much these frail bones can take.

God continues to strip away who I am piece by piece, but I know all things work together for those who love God. I know even if things continue to get worst as they have that God is still good and every tear I cry and every day that I struggle gives me joy knowing I’m one day closer to being with my Savior.

It’s just hard and hopefully I get some relief. Hopefully all of us get some relief because I know it’s been a hard year for everyone around.

Lord Jesus have mercy upon me a sinner.

What else is there to say outside of that? I guess I should go now, thank all of you who have, will, or plan on praying for me. If you need prayers my messages are open and I intercede for this community daily because I know the enemy comes to steal, kill, and destroy but Jesus comes to give us life and life more abundantly.

Hi brothers and sisters in Jesus,

I’m humbly asking that all of you remember me in prayer. I’m at a crossroads where the next couple of days will determine the next footsteps I take. I’m overwhelmed and exhausted and I’m having a hard time compared to my baseline. My dog is also sick and was given charcoal and is doing better but he’s not out of the woods yet. I don’t think things have got this bad before, but God is still on the throne.

This might be an odd request for me to ask you all to specifically pray for, but I desire to find someone I can pray with in person. It’s been a long time since I’ve prayed with someone in person and hopefully if it ever happens again it’s with someone who actually loves the Lord and not someone who loves themselves and their ego.

I’ve been so hungry for God. I worship Him in nature and I pray and read His Word. It’s always like I can see the light but there’s always one little barrier I can’t see. I feel like I’m Elijah a lot of days with telling the Lord this is enough. I know God’s heart that He is good and He is a Shepherd to His sheep, but I’m running empty with the words though You slay me I will praise You. Hopefully the Lord will grant some mercy soon because there’s only so much these frail bones can take.

God continues to strip away who I am piece by piece, but I know all things work together for those who love God. I know even if things continue to get worst as they have that God is still good and every tear I cry and every day that I struggle gives me joy knowing I’m one day closer to being with my Savior.

It’s just hard and hopefully I get some relief. Hopefully all of us get some relief because I know it’s been a hard year for everyone around.

Lord Jesus have mercy upon me a sinner.

What else is there to say outside of that? I guess I should go now, thank all of you who have, will, or plan on praying for me. If you need prayers my messages are open and I intercede for this community daily because I know the enemy comes to steal, kill, and destroy but Jesus comes to give us life and life more abundantly.

I’m going on a trip in two weeks out to Montana. It’s been about a year since I’ve been there. I’m still hurting and suffering from the effects of everything that was done to me. I take responsibility for some of it, but I also acknowledge that the majority of it was not my fault.

One of my favorite things to do out in Montana is to find mountain cliffs and edges of the rivers bank to pray at. I love to pray out in nature because it is an environment where there are no distractions and people to ruin the moment. That’s my prayer anyways for this trip. Last time I had no problems and I was able to find isolated areas, but the enemy is always cooking up situations to ruin the peace of those who follow Jesus.

Pray that my plane travels are safe, that my reservations work out properly, and then I’m able to find isolated spots in nature where people won’t bother me.

I hope this trip will be able to heal. It’s been very difficult to heal. I thank God, however that he opened my eyes to the destructive nature of deliverance ministry. I’m thankful that he’s given me a community where I can help people escape the type of environment that I was involved in. It helps me to deal with my guilt and it feels like a penance of sorts to have an environment where people know the power of the Lord, instead of being consumed with the fear of the devil.

I know God is still working. I know, even in my doubts and in my anger at the lack of progress He is still working. I am so thankful that I can say this world is not my home and truly understand why that song was written. I’m a stranger on the Earth but I’m a daughter of my Father and I am thankful that His mercy runs deeper than the scars in my heart.

Acelia

Hi community,

I’d like to ask that all of you pray for me for my upcoming trip to the Midwest. It’s been approximately a year since I’ve been back there and I’m looking forward to it. One of my favorite pastimes is praying out on mountain cliffs and riversides. It’s a place where there are no people or distractions to shift my focus away from God.

Please keep in your prayers that I have safe travels on the plane and there are no issues with my reservations. Also, that I won’t have any difficulties finding places I can seek God in peace. Last time it wasn’t super difficult finding isolated spots, but you never know what kind of obstacles might appear.

I hope this vacation can release a lot of the pain I’ve been carrying for a while now. I know God is good even when people who claim to know Him are not. May Jesus comfort my heart and help me to continue to press forward for Him.

Also lastly, if any of you live in Eastern Washington or Northwestern Montana and know any good spots that are peaceful and isolated, please let me know. I like spots where I can hide from people, because it’s never been my goal to have people stare at me praying.

I was skeptical of it and recognized the harms that psychiatry has done, but after my psychological report I see the world throughout an entirely different perspective.

My psychologist listed me as “not friendly or interested in small talk” in my report and listed me as having odd and delusional beliefs for having very normal religious beliefs and practices. All the sensory issues and socialization problems I’ve had since my childhood were just attributed to a personality disorder even though she said it’s hard to know if it’s autism or a personality disorder. Which personality disorders don’t start exhibiting symptoms until age 12.

I realized that she painted me in the worst possible light because my beliefs offended her, even when she asked me about them. This lady then decided to recommend therapy yet again, while calling me a difficult candidate. After I told her therapy feels infantilizing and many providers try to debate my religion instead of including it in my care plan. My report was so contradicting, disgusting, and inappropriate. Her entire justification for why the medications do not work is because “they don’t work for personality disorders, but “work” for depression and anxiety” which I have both of and not the dozens of SSRIs, SARI, benzos and others have worked to correct those issues.

She completely took things I said when describing my trauma in the worst possible light and failed to document any of the parental abuse and minimized the spousal abuse I endured. I don’t know if there’s a way to get a second opinion because I don’t have BPD & the report looks like it could’ve been written by a freshman college student tipsy on alcohol.

I just hate the way they characterize people because they’re not neurotypical or normal. Everyone is different, and someone isn’t schizotypical because they recognize humanity is self-serving and prefer to have religious practices in nature than engage with other people. The choice of praying on top of mountain cliffs and in the woods is not bothering anyone - but apparently to secular people like her - any form of spiritual peace is “delusional” or “abnormal” or whatever.

I’m just done. I’ve tried deliverance ministry. I’ve tried psychiatry. I’ve tried religion. I’ve accepted I’ll die like this and I’m okay with that. I’ve come to the conclusion mental health is a complicated thing and trauma can permanently alter your brain structure. I don’t think mental health is as treatable as people claim and a lot of the improvement people claim to have is a result of suggestibility, placebo, and a change of environment.

It’s easy to destroy someone’s credibility with labeling them with a personality disorder. I hate to break it to her though. I’m much brighter and rational than she will ever be. These people will pay in the afterlife to come.

Hi, I’m sure a lot of you know me well. I have been a lot more inactive lately to deal with a lot of personal things going on in my life. I’m thankful that God gave me a moderator to deal with my communities while I am processing inmensurable amounts of trauma and pain that I am experiencing. It’s a reminder that even in a world with darkness and suffering, that God moves in ways that I cannot fathom.

I’m dealing with a situation with my college regarding my ability to have fair and reasonable accessibility. I’m moving colleges because of the fact these people are violating the law and not giving me fair and reasonable accommodations. I’m still escalating my complaints higher up, but I am going to a new college over the summer so I would like prayers that that ends up going well and that I can get the legal and appropriate accommodations that I need to thrive in an academic environment.

I am still deconstructing from deliverance ministry, and it is very difficult to deal with the aftermath of everything that I dealt with. I am thankful, however that nothing in this world can separate me from the love of my Father. I am very thankful that God rescued me from that movement and that he has shown me grace that I do not deserve and mercy that I cannot comprehend. I continue to pray for my brothers and sisters that are trapped in that movement and do not see the power that Jesus Christ has over the enemy.

I’m going on a trip this month to the mountains as well. One of my favorite things to do over there is praying on the mountain cliffs, so keep me in prayer that my trip is safe and that I won’t run into any obstacles like wildlife or people who can’t mind their own business. I’d like to thank you guys for praying for me, it’s still a very difficult road to navigate and I still pray for the man who hurt me. It sucks being the only person to believe that God can move a heart such as his, but I hope one day I’ll meet people in the future that share that same vision with me.

Thank you and may God bless you all.

Acelia

Hi, I know I’ve been inactive here due to personal priorities. I just wanted to share and respond to some of the criticisms I’ve saw today and remind everyone what our priorities are for this community.

The moderators and even members here have various different beliefs regarding biblical doctrines. Our goal however, as moderators, is to promote Jesus and bring others to salvation. This community allows dialogue, disagreement, and we even welcome the doubting, because we want the truth to be made apparent. Jesus asserts He is the way, the truth, and the life.

As far as our convictions go about calling out communities like NAR and the Pentecostal movement. This is something God has placed on our hearts, and for me it is because I did not know my Father until I deconstructed from those harmful movements. It comes from a place of love to want to encourage you guys to seek the truth in God’s Word. You don’t have to agree with everything we post, but this comes from a good place in our hearts to correct and point to Jesus.

The most loving thing we can do as Christians is to speak the truth, despite how uncomfortable it makes people feel. If we stay silent on everything, nothing will ever change. Just as people are politically active to want changes within their country. We as Christians should be spiritually active to want changes within our community. Our goal should be leading people to Jesus, but also to cut the weeds around us.

Despite how you feel about some of these recent posts, I hope you recognize that there’s a diversity of thought in the body of Christ and all of us in moderator positions want you all to know the truth in Jesus Christ and find salvation and peace in Him first and foremost.

Thank you,

Acelia