Forgotten 2x
My husband, twice now, has forgotten me at work to have sex with his partner. Two different partners, two different times, but weeks apart. First time was just forgetting visiting me at work after I said I wasn't "doing good" mentally (a lot behind that), second time my car was broken down so he willingly dropped me off and just... forgot me at work. An hour away from home. Completely.
Last weekend is when it happened the most recent, and most tragic. He didnt even remember me until it was TIME to pick me up from work, he knew how upset I was and we had a conversation already about this before. I was made a fool once, and now twice for his sex.
Im 37 weeks pregnant now, and stuck on this. This weekend he said he'd take me on a date, rekindle us, and no thinking required on my behalf. Im mostly the decision maker in the relationship and he knows I hate being the only one to make them, especially with how pregnant I am. Well anyways, he forgot to plan it. Didnt put effort in for a last minute thing. The one thing he did have which relieved a lot of my pregnancy symptoms (swimming) and he cancelled that and he didn't even want to do so instead he said he wanted to fish.
Im outdoorsy but it's so hot and the last time he tried to fish and had me come with him ("tried" because the line was wrong for the rod, not because I was there) I didnt partake at all and didnt want to. He knew this. He knew I didnt want to fish right now.
We didnt do anything in the end and I ended up doing the work for maybe getting us a house soon instead.
And now to rewind a bit to the conversation after the second time he forgot me and he knew how close I was to taking a break on our relationship, I told him enough polyamory for now till we can fix the relationship. He agreed.
Fast forward to now and he's still talking to the girl that he was having sex with the second time he forgot me, and even sent a photo of us fucking (not uncommon, was fine with it initially with the idea all he sent was the photo) with the caption "Thinking of you" while balls deep in my pussy, gripping my ass.
Am I too immature? Am I too hormonal right now? Am I going crazy? Why am I ALWAYS the side piece? Like yes I am fine with not being the only one, the sex is only slightly an issue as in it shouldn't have you forgetting about me but it's not all that for me, it's the continuously FORGETTING completely.
Im heartbroken and dont know what to do at this point. I just want some love, and I cant even get that if it isnt something he loves and wants to do too. I want something sacrifice like Ive sacrificed for him and Ive TOLD him this, and still nothing.
Im not even worth a planned date.