my (23F) partner (25M) recently told me that he suddenly remembered the type of smut fanfiction/porn he used to consume from 13-18/19, it often revolved around taboo themes like rape and incest. he’s dealing with a lot of guilt surrounding knowing he read and masturbated to these things, and believes he’s the worst person ever for doing so.
he seems to be convincing himself that he’s a rapist etc for getting off to this kind of stuff and it’s affected the way he is a lot, he won’t eat as much, he’s not his usual funny self, he’s having suicidal ideations etc.
i’m really worried, he’s told me that before me he was very lonely, that he would please himself up to three times a day, sometimes more, just to feel something. he’s admitted he had a masturbation addiction and obviously, the fanfic he got off to was part of this.
i know what kind of guy he is and how amazing he is but hes struggling to separate 13-18/19 year old him to himself now.
i’m just wondering if there’s anyone else that has gone through this and can give me some advice on how i can be there for him or just advice for him?