u/Due_Warning_1542

During my NEET preparation, I fell into a cycle that was incredibly difficult to break. I used to masturbate almost every day, and on alternate days I would do it twice.

Every night before going to bed, I would promise myself that the next day would be different. I'd tell myself, "Tomorrow I'll study seriously. I'll stay disciplined and make up for today."

The next morning, I would wake up feeling motivated. I'd sit at my desk, open my books, and genuinely believe that I was finally going to study hard. But after just 10–15 minutes, my mind would start craving quick dopamine. Instead of pushing through the discomfort of studying, I'd give in and end up masturbating.

Afterward, I would feel mentally drained, guilty, and completely unmotivated. Rather than getting back to my books, I'd waste more time on my phone or doing nothing. Sometimes, when I felt my motivation dropping again, I would masturbate once more, hoping it would somehow reset my mood—but it never did.

Before I knew it, it would already be noon. I would realize that half the day was gone and I had barely studied anything. Then I'd tell myself, "I've already ruined today. I'll start properly tomorrow."

The next day, the exact same cycle would repeat. Day after day, I kept waiting for "tomorrow" instead of breaking the pattern, and it became one of the biggest obstacles during my NEET preparation.

How many times you fap a day during neet prep ?

She is the daughter of my dad's friend, and she's a very shy person. Ever since we were children, our parents have jokingly said that we would get married when we grew up.

Whenever I try to talk to her, she mumbles, seems nervous, and doesn't say much. When her sister teases us about getting married, she gets angry or embarrassed. We're both 18 now.

Lately, I feel like she deliberately avoids me. Sometimes, when I try to start a conversation, I get the impression that she's silently saying, "Please don't go talk to me for hours," even though she never actually says it. But I'm not sure if that's just my imagination.

What's confusing is that she doesn't seem nearly as shy around other guys. Sometimes I feel like she might like me, and other times I feel like she doesn't.

Does anyone have any idea what might be going on in her mind?

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