u/Dull-Anxiety-7451

EVEN MY LAST ONE GOT DELETED.

WHAT IS WRONG WITH THIS COMPANY?!

16 year old.

17 year old.

POSTING ANIME COSPLAYS ON REDDIT.

AND GETTING BANNED?!?!

(IM LIVING IN RAGE AT LEAST 4 HOURS A DAY!! SO IM SHOUTING YEAH BECAUSE IM SUFFERING BECSUSE OF DOCTORS **MEDICAL GASLIGHTING** FOR 14 YEARS, but this is in my previous post.

BUT THIS TOPIC "UNDERAGE" JUST TRIGGERED ME EVEN MORE!).

AND PEOPLE SUPPORTI G THAT BAN?!

AND WRITING

"Minors are dumb and shouldn't be posting pictures of themselves online"

"I agree, lets hope she wasn’t underage, i heard that she was in college but i have no proof"

"I wasn't sure before but she seems underaged and shouldn't be posting cosplays of herself online. The internet is not a good place for an underage tomoko cosplayer. Keep that shit out of here.".

BRO!!!

WHATS WRONG WITH IT??

i responded with

"Imagine thinking age is a substitute for an actual argument. Calling an entire demographic 'dumb' is just a lazy way to justify your obsession with controlling others. The internet isn't 'dangerous' because of teenagers expressing themselves through cosplay—it's toxic because of adults who treat minors like property and think their only job is to play the moral police. If you're so bothered by a photo, maybe the problem isn't the 'dumb minor,' but your own need to gatekeep autonomy."

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Do you think i did good?

​I am 17 and my body is in a state of neurological and physiological collapse, but because I’m a "child," I am being gaslighted by the very people who are supposed to help me.

​I AM MISSING HALF OF MY DIAGNOSES BECAUSE OF THESE ADULT MOTHERFERS WHO REFUSE TO DO THEIR JOB!*

For DECADE, I’ve been told I’m a "healthy child" just because my EKG and blood work are normal. Meanwhile, my reality is a nightmare of medical neglect:

​THE BLOOD PRESSURE CRISIS: Adults tell me I’m just "anxious," but my BP hits 140/90 or 130/100 in school. During exams or doctor visits, it spikes to 155/90.

THEY IGNORE THIS EVERY SINGLE TIME!

​DAILY AGONY: I have DAILY VERTIGO AND DIZZINESS. I’ve lived with chronic pain since I was 11 due to Central Sensitization (Fibromyalgia), but it was dismissed as "growing pains."

​MY SKIN IS A MINEFIELD: It’s not just sweat blockers. MY SKIN REACTS TO EVERYTHING. I get rashes if I use normal soap once instead of hypoallergenic. I get rashes from normal laundry detergent. I GET RASHES JUST FROM TRYING ON PANTS IN A STORE! Even with SPF 50+, the sun makes my skin burn and itch after only 30 minutes.

​THE SYSTEM IS RIGGED:

I have ADHD, but I’m STILL fighting for my AUTISM, DYSAUTONOMIA, FIBROMYALGIA, and ARFID diagnoses. Why? Because adults think I’m "too young to be this sick" or that I’m "acting for attention."

THEY EVEN SAY THAT BECAUSE I’M "SMART" AND "SELF-AWARE," I SHOULD JUST COPE WITHOUT HELP.

I AM AN ENERGY BANKRUPT AT 17 because I have to spend all my strength fighting doctors who think a "normal" blood test means I’m not suffering. My age is not a shield for your medical incompetence. STOP GASLIGHTING ME AND GIVE ME MY DIAGNOSES!

I’ve seen a doctor twice and it’s been a disaster. First, they gave me antibiotic ointment, then antifungals. It only got worse because it’s not an infection—it’s a severe chemical burn.

​My skin is so reactive that it developed this reaction after using a "Ziaja" sweat blocker. I’ve had extreme skin sensitivity since I was a baby (reacting even to basic oils), but the doctor completely ignored my history.

​Current situation:

​The Burn: My armpits are raw and red. It burns constantly.

​Allodynia/Fibromyalgia: Because of my Central Sensitization, the pain is amplified x10.

2 months ago, just shaving caused 2 weeks of agony despite no visible changes.

...

Now, with an actual burn, it’s unbearable.

​The Cycle: My school complains about me sweating, but every blocker I use causes chemical burns and intense pain without even stopping the sweat.

​I’ve stopped using everything. How do I treat a chemical burn on skin that is already neurologically "broken" and hyper-reactive? Standard treatments often contain irritants that make my Allodynia flare up.

Since childhood, I handed psychiatrists all the textbook DSM-5 symptoms on a silver platter, completely unmasked.

At 17, they finally threw me an ADHD diagnosis, but that is just the tip of the iceberg.

I am STILL undiagnosed for Autism, ARFID, Fibromyalgia, IBS, and PTSD, because the system would rather gaslight me than do its job.

​They called my 6 years of agonizing chronic pain "growing pains"

and my 80dB night terrors "normal sleep talking."

I was constantly told I was "too active for Autism" and "too sensitive for ADHD,"

proving these professionals haven't updated their medical knowledge in 20 years.

My nervous system is now completely burned out from severe sensory overload (Gagging from smells, physical pain from light) because I had to fight just to survive without any accommodations.

The psychiatric system doesn't heal you; it ignores your suffering until you are forced to become your own doctor.

I am an energy bankrupt at 17, fighting physical and mental agony while they continue to deny me my full diagnosis.

It’s designed to shut down any "normie" comments about "just having bad dreams."

## MY NIGHT TERRORS AREN'T "DREAMS"—THEY ARE A SYSTEM FAILURE

To everyone saying "it's just a nightmare" or "everyone talks in their sleep"—**STFU**. I’ve been logging my sleep with a monitor, and the data is a horror show. My nervous system is literally fighting for its life 24/7.

### THE "DATA" OF A BROKEN SYSTEM:

* **Decibel Levels:** I’m not "muttering." I am hitting **80-90 dB** (the volume of a lawnmower or a shout in your ear) screaming "I’M NOT FAKING!" and "DON'T IGNORE ME!"

* **Physical Violence:** I wake up hitting walls, shaking, with my blood pressure spiking to **165/68** at 6:00 AM. My body thinks it's in a life-or-death battle while I’m just trying to "rest."

* **Fibro-Dreaming:** My **Fibromyalgia** is so bad it bleeds into my dreams. I dream about being unable to walk, moaning in pain, and I wake up feeling like I was hit by a truck. There is **ZERO** regeneration.

### THE SOMATIC RECKONING (ARFID & SCHOOL TRAUMA):

My brain has associated "School" and "Adults/Doctors" with pure danger.

* **The Vomit Reflex:** After a night of screaming, my body enters such a high state of stress that I had **15 gagging/vomiting reflexes** in one morning.

* **Sensory Shutdown:** My **ARFID** isn't a "choice." I literally couldn't eat for 6 hours because my nervous system was so fried from the night terror that my throat closed up. I only managed to eat a vanilla ice cream because it was the only thing that didn't feel like a threat.

### MEDICAL GASLIGHTING IN MY HEAD:

Even my dreams are mocking the shitty "specialists" I’ve seen. I dream about:

1. People telling me to "just go to the gym" or "put the phone away" to fix my sleep.

2. Doctors telling me "I look healthy" while I’m literally breaking my own hands in the dream trying to fight off bullies.

3. Being accused of self-harm when I’m actually in physical agony from **Allodynia**.

> **"I am a financial and energetic bankrupt by the time I open my eyes."**

>

I’ve spent 15 years being told I'm "too complicated" or "too active for Autism/too weird for ADHD." While the doctors argue over which box to put me in, I’m losing weight, losing sleep, and losing my mind because my brain refuses to "filter" the trauma.

**Don't tell me to "get used to it." You wouldn't survive one hour in my nervous system.**