Well I don’t know if this fits here… but I wanted to say this.

When I listen to Ado, I don’t just hear music. I hear something that feels like loneliness… but not the empty kind. The kind that understands you.

I think I lived a part of that loneliness too.

When I was a child, I was different. I was very quiet. I didn’t speak until I was around 5 years old. People thought I was mute, but I wasn’t… I just couldn’t express what was inside me.

A teacher once isolated me from the other kids because of how different I was. I stayed alone, watching them from a distance, like I didn’t belong there .

I still have my small notebook from that time(my hand writing was just pure mess).

I left primary school with zero friends.

No memories. No pictures.

Not even my family has photos of me from that time… only of my older brother hangingoutwithhis friends.

Even now, I feel alone sometimes. My brother exists we used to talk and i reallyloved that and all, but he’s getting older and always working (such a hard_worker). So I stay… just looking at the ceiling, thinking.

And yes, it hurts but it's ok i am fine with that.

But when I listen to Ado, something changes.

It feels like:

“No matter how alone you are… this moment is here with you.”

And somehow… that’s enough. Ado is amazing

Bc I think when i listen to songs like to cheer up but i end up thinking and rethinking without even knowing what is the song abt or hearing anything at all ; but Ado’s voice isn't that one u can ignore and listen to ur thoughts instead , well I love aishite³ and usseewa and odo and show and many others ofc but maybe I don't know others bc u know there are many underrated songs of ado and I would love if u suggest some for me and thx🫡

I am happy bc the struggles i live never affected my marks at school i still want to stay at 1st place even tho i can't feel the same happiness i work hard for àd even if mom and dad won't really care anymore

Mom and dad and big bro just decided to go to our new house where my high-school is really really really far away like abt 288 miles u know that's why I decided to stay at my grandma home and now it's really lonely there i always miss mom and big bro and dad as well what should I do

Ofc no one remembered it then i knew that no one will remember i didn't even take with me my money to buy something byt i found some in my magic pocket so i bought a tiny cake i headed home with tired body bc that day we did sports and no one was there i celebrated alone ate the cake woth my cat (which unfortunately died) -idk why i am sharing this story tho

Even though my mind always says that love isn't real

Car knocked her small body saw everything and i couldn't help but cry in the front door

I held her little frame little tiny lifeless body crying.

I hope those who have cats take care of them they really do have feelings and hurt

For me the one makes me smile is new genesis

The one makes me cry none bc I don't cry often like really

And today as I was walking it's started to idk how to hurt and I struggled to breath for a sec and it's goes normal and I used to take heart medication but dr told me to stop it since I am only 16 yo bc that time when I was 15 I had really hard time with heart fast madly beating for 2h at least

I hope u answer my simple question

WHAT IS GOING ON WITH ME?

thanks for listening 🫡

When I was 10000 focused studying for exams it landed on my shoulder I got terrified i am I mean my hands r shaking I can't write my notes it's like she is telling me to stop studying at least there is my grandma mom and dad aren't here for so long she said i look pale IT’S TERRIFYING

I took heart medication when I was 15 bc my heart used to beat faster than norm (now I am 16)

I mean it's so inspiring it's shows that even when u left all alone u still can make ur dreams come true no matter and even u don't have dreams(as me here) it's ok to only imagine and dream JUST DREAM alright I am joking but yeah

Idk maybe someone knows the reason

For me idk it's no but yes listening to her music makes me feel less pain and all mess in my head become calmer little bit ,through the screaming i can't scream .or hearing her stories in radio make me smile often idk i though it can help but other times when i listen to her music the voice of her become unheard bc of my thoughts i can't even focus i only end up hearing my scary thoughts

​My struggle began when I was only five years old. At an age where children need nurturing, I was singled out by a teacher who treated me with unexplained hostility. I remember watching her pat the heads of other students and offer them encouragement, while I was met only with harsh shouts and cold, mocking smirks.

​The constant state of terror I lived in didn't just make me hate school—it took a physical toll on my developing body. Living in perpetual fear at such a tender age led to a chronic heart condition that I still manage today. Tragically, this condition keeps me away from the sports I once loved.​The stress was so overwhelming that I suffered from frequent bouts of vomiting, until she finally called my father. To make matters worse, my mother was very ill at the time, which meant I couldn't see or talk to her for support. I finished primary school with zero friends; the isolation that teacher created around me was absolute and soul-crushing.​Today, I have managed to become a good student, but the internal battle remains. I find myself hating the version of me that existed back then. I still struggle to provide love to myself; it feels as though I am not truly living, but rather just carrying the weight of my past while merely breathing.