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I’ll make this quick and easy.

I feel like i’m too replaceable and people get bored of me quickly.

I do have friends, both presencial and online but i don’t feel like im someone’s special or unique friend and is somehow a need that has grown a lot lately.

I’ve had some bad experiences, specially on online friendships. I know it shouldn’t affect me that much but it does, and i’ve talked about it with a bunch of people and my therapist. Tho no matter what i try it always comes to the same feeling. It got so bad to the point that i left all online platforms for a while, but it only made me feel lonelier.

This point comes to the fact that i’ve made online friends recently and the same feeling is hunting me again. Specially with one person in particular.

I’ve only known them for about a month and a half and im already way too attached to them.

no i do not have feelings for them, i assure you.

at the start they would reply quickly, id spend more time w them and slowly i started looking forward to spending time with them. but now they take a bunch of time answering.

i get that people have their owns lives and they can’t always be accesible. which makes me feel more guilty.

and when they talk about their other friends it’s worse, i start overthinking things a lot more. which is EVEN MORE TOXIC.

i genuinely do not know what to do anymore, and im growing way too tired of this feelings.

i’m just genuinely scared.