Stuck in a trance
Hey everyone.
My long time partner of 2.5 years ended things with me about 6 weeks ago now and im still struggling to come to terms with some things. It felt abrupt. I know we had our issues. I wasnt taking care of myself as much I should've and the same goes for him. Im not sure how to process this. I dont think ive processed a lot of whats happened to me over the years. One of those things being my first and only manic episode last year.
My ex was there for me during that time. He was there while I was losing my mind. I was so terrified when all of that was going on and he was with me through it all. Now that I dont have him for support and I feel distraught.
Sometimes I will be going about my day normally and all of a sudden im brought back to the day i went manic. Its like I've been sucked into the past in some sort of trance with my brain replaying those moments. That car ride, what he said to me, how he comforted me, how terrified I was thinking the pain would never end; and then I just snap out of it.
Im not sure how to stop those moments where im sucked into the past and dont realize im there. Im sorry if this doesnt make much sense. I hope someone can relate or just give some advice, thanks.