u/East_Air_6000

I can't. I am losing everything. My husband divorced me and left me with a child with no support. He is kicking me out of the house. I have been abused and depressed and our daughter is only 9 months old. I am physically sick and I have no job. I need to go back to live with my parents who used do abuse me too. I don't think I can make it much longer. I am exhausted and haven't slept for months because of my daughter. Nobody is helping me. I have severe health problems. I am barely alive. I walk like a Zombie. I make through the day just because of her. Because I am the only one to take care of her. Every day I think i should kill myself. I don't know how much longer I can survive. I lost all hope. I was trying to get better to get a diagnosis to get some treatment but failed. I just lost all hope for any improvement. I lost my life. It is the end for me. I can't see any hope

I suffer and struggle and he just kicked us out to leave the house in two weeks. I am so sad I want to cry all day but I can't because she is going to cry to. Why I even write this. Meanwhile he is playing games in the basement laughing like nothing is happening. Why have I done this to myself why I ruined my life it's all my fault how could I do it. My heart hurts so much I think I will just collapse from exhaustion

I had a suspected pe in my lung when pregnant. The scan was unclear they said. I had all the symptoms and had blood thinners for 6 weeks. My shortness of breath didn't go away. I feel like I breathe through a straw. Every breath I have to force through the nose. My nose feels like it's blocked and the lungs feel like they don't expand. Had two CT scans and two Vq scans. All clear. Pulmonary doctors suggested asthma and trying inhalers. I also have elevated heart rate and lightheaded. Primary doctor says I have pots because my pressure drops when I stand. I feel extreme fatigue and can't do anything. Have a little baby at home and can't breathe. Being outside is impossible as heat and humidity makes it worse. I can't breathe even in the shower. Pulmonary testing showed lower dlco

Still waiting for a sleep test. I am exhausted. Echo of the heart was ok and the cardiologist doesn't seem to see a problem. My quality of life is horrible. The pulmonologist said that it's anxiety. Which I don't believe because it happens all the time. At night I have to sleep on many pillows. It never goes away. Dysautonomia? Post pe syndrome?

I used to be very active and walked miles in heat and now I can even seat outside without feeling like I suffocate. Any ideas what to test or who to see? Please can someone relate.