I'm a graduate with no job. My hurdles have not being able to start the task and maintain focus to complete the task.. I struggle with executive dysfunction and task paralysis. I'm trying to study but I just can't. What motivated you to study programming? How did you maintain focus.
It's been an year since I was diagnosed with bpd and rn I opened a very old attachment wound with my groomer and I've been severely unstable since then.
I keep experiencing dissociation a lot. A lot like some part of my brain switched off the information and emotions related to it even though I remember the information I can't fully process it. I feel so scared and alone. Anyone have gone thru this severely? I want someone to talk about it so I don't feel so alone.
Does anyone struggling with contradictory feelings and thoughts that are intense. I was groomed by my teacher and now even though ik he is bad I keep going back to him... It's like different parts of my brain are fighting with eachother. Is this a symptom of BPD or something else?
I'm 25 now, I've been groomed from the age of 13 to 19
And I was the one who left him
Recently I got in contact with him and since then I've been acting impulsively. Now I have this urge to rekindle our relationship again or just have sex with him again because I wanna feel loved and wanted. Am I crazy? Can anyone relate to me? Did anyone come out of it?
I have been having urges to drink from a long time.
My parents don't want me to drink so I'm not doing it.
But these few days the urge has become so much stronger that I am now thinking about going to other city to my frnds to do it. Cuz I don't have any frnds in my home town.
Any advice on how you have managed your urges?
I was groomed by my teacher from the age of 13 to 19.
Though it was all online and I never ever met him in person. It affected me so much that I got borderline personality disorder now and an Auto immune disease.
Is it really grooming though sexual but was all online ... My mom says it wasn't that serious as an actual rape.
The problem is I've contacted him again and I'm not sure why I'm talking to him again..?
He doesn't realise how big of a thing it is and I doubt myself if it was really big enf or just a love/sexual story in my life with someone older when I was a kid.
Ik I should talk to my therapist about this but I'm scared to do so.... Will she thinks I'm some broken record or something seriously ill person. I'm afraid she might drop me as a client if I tell her.
Honestly I'm ashamed of myself for continuing to talk to him normally.
I did tell t that I talked to him recently and gave him a warning.
But I'm afraid to tell her that I'm actually continuing to talk to him.🙂😭🙏