u/Easy-Card7183

Good luck this one is long.

I've thought Abt it alot but I've never been with someone I truly loved and connected with,I think it has to do with teens these days js not looking for a connection but js a gf or bf. I miss having long,deep,loving convos with my special person. But idk Ig I'm also js afraid of intimacy and don't want them to see my scars and think like "ew". Also my current bf I js hung out with him at this bridge one day and he kissed me and js decided we were dating. But honestly I'm so broken up Abt my past partners,the ones I really connected with. Life is moving by so fast in HS. I don't let myself cry Abt it bc I js can't/I won't let myself. But my current bf,I don't love him. I just don't know why. It's like after so many guys love bombing and shit and promising me they'll never leave after I vent Abt my real personal life then they just up and leave with some bullshit excuse after a month. So I think all my love has ran out and it's just an act with him rn. But I lie to him up and down whenever he says it. But I don't live this boy. He's done nothing wrong and I js hate him. I'd love to be a close friend with him because I didn't even fucking know the guy before I dated him and I fear that if I tell him I don't fucking love him bc I don't know him that he'll break up with me and I think I don't want that bc I js hate being alone. I hate kissing him. I hate that my tongue had touched his. I hate when his hands automatically touch my waist. But I love that he loves me. I want him to grovel like I've done for others desperately for so many years.

AAAANYWAYS,thanks for reading give me your opinion.

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