u/Easy-Tigger

What was it like?

I don't even realise I'm doing it until I hear myself.

Constantly muttering to myself about walking in front of trains or taking a knife or just finally getting to rest. Like I was out walking and found myself pointing out good places to be buried.

I've tried but I just can't shut up. Even if I do stop myself saying it, my brain is like a hamster on wheel, just spinning around and around.

I'm terrified my boss or family will hear me, but even more scared I'm going to through with it. I'm just so tired all the time, I can barely think straight most days.