What kind of therapist for this?
Find a therapist, what type?
What kind of therapist for this?
How do I start this conversation?
Any special type of therapist for these topics?
I have some dark "secrets" I want to work through, mostly just share with someone. I do not have anyone neutral (who doesnt blindly support me) in my life I can share with - I do not want to burden friends / family more, they already know about it but have dismissed it. Also it was in the past but I keep feeling guilty so want to bring it up. I worry if I reiterate the gravity of what happened, they will be burdened with making a choice - to accept me or not. But at the same time i am only human like everyone else- as we age we all (probably) face difficult situations which make us feel icky and test our morals.
About the toxic nature of my relationship with my ex. We were arguing over a podcast - this triggered deep insecurities in me esp because it revealed some deep value system conflicts in us - I lashed out and accidently passed a remote to him by throwing it across the couch we were both sitting on (3 feet away from him). it hurt him on the head - is this DV? My sister and closest friends know about this. But theyve somehow dismissed it as "I am not a violent person" . But would it be interpretted differently if the genders were reversed. I guess I want to go over why it triggered me the way it did.
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While we were long distance, he was drunk with some other friends that I also knew. Everyone was drunk, apparently he was dancing to closely with another girl. Mutual friends said it was SA but no one told me what exactly happened more than "they were dancing too close" and that she regretted it the next day. Mind you she had a bf like he had me as his gf. Friends expected me to break up but I decided to let the friendship die rather than end my 4 year old relationship with him. I insisted he make some reparations - like watching his alcohol consumption in parties- never getting drunk to that level again (he gave up alcohol for 2 years after that) and taking up therapy seriously. I hold the guilt of whether I supported an abuser? But there just wasnt enough concrete examples- like did anyone actually see him touch her anywhere??, and also when both people are drunk, why is the blame just on the man? So because imo there wasnt enough proof I decided to let it go. But now that the relationship I was willing to fight for has ended, I am regretting it and questioning if i lack a spine
I want to ask these to a therapist not sure how to bring it up.
Thanks