Some support please?
My alcoholic has moved on, living his best life, with his first love, booze and his second love, women. I feel devastated, by the stark contrast of what he gave me (worries, pressure, aggression, silence, anger, dismissal, depression, refusal to live, refusal to socialize, fear) and what he's putting out now. Laughter, joy, social life, enthusiasm, happiness.
As if us ending finally brought him back his joy for living. We ended it after his last relapse and an announcement that his alcoholism has been cured so he's going back to the bottle.
Don't come for me, I'm not snooping on him, I'm also fully no contact. Just got the information through a 3rd party despite letting people know not to give updates as I'm still raw and uninsterested in keeping up.
So yeah, that's the post, I feel fucking wrecked despite knowing to focus on myself, my healing, knowing it's got nothing to do with me, knowing that it's for the better and I'll probably find joy too.
But today cuts deep. Some kind wishes please?