I have been trying one out for the last few weeks and it just kinda sucks. Mostly just how it seems impossible to break into the cliques that everyone forms. Seems like high school again where I am the black sheep and everyone has their own groups they just stick to. I don't know, seems kind of pointless going to it anymore when the goal of meeting new people is just kinda impossible.
Lately dating just has not been going well. Thought I had found my person and that didn't work out. Took a long time from dating to recover from the relationship. Have tried again recently and every date goes poorly or they aren't interested after a couple. I have been feeling pretty hopeless about the situation and have been praying just asking for help and to be put on the path to find whoever she may be. I keep getting a feeling that I need to reach out to a friend when I was a kid and we just kinda drifted apart. But I don't know if this is an actual prompting or me just being desperate to find someone and her name being the first to come to mind since our families are close and I just didn't have much friends growing up. Not sure what to do here.
Edit: just to clarify I am not in any way under the impression she is like the one or God is telling me I need to marry her. Just that maybe it couldn't hurt to see if something is there.
So last week I scheduled 4 dates with different people because I honestly didn't think one would go anywhere. The first date went really well, we've been texting since then and I have another with her tomorrow. I had a first date with another today and to be quite honest I didn't want to be there and found myself just being excited for the second date. The other two are scheduled but have yet to happen. I can tell I have or am getting feelings for this girl and it seems to be going similar for her. To be quite honest I am dreading the other 2 dates and the only thing keeping me from canceling is feeling bad about it and maybe tomorrow goes bad. But I don't know, my gut is telling me to cancel the dates because I don't want to be there or waste their time. But I also realize this is still way early on and I'm not necessarily doing anything wrong.