I feel guilty
Here I am paralysed and on the verge of tears. I knew one day I will cross the path of someone I know. It has happened before but this time it was my own fruit evangelising in the middle of a busy train station.
I had rehearsed these scenarios so many times in my head and thought I would know how to act or what to say but I froze. Guilt overwhelmed me instantly.
I have ruined someone's life. I have ruined many people's lives. I have had a hand in separating people from their families, in couples breaking up, in people quitting their jobs to be a full time workers , in people moving to new cities to plant churches. I have done so much wrong.
I may have tried to fix my wrongs, reasoned that I too was brainwashed but today the guilt is overwhelming me. I know I will feel better soon but today my past is catching up to me.
Sorry for the rant. I just needed to get it out.