u/Educational_Put_1251

My sp broke contact. Yes he did. But he had zero regret zero resentment. He wanted to tell me he is moving out of country and is hoping for a good future and he wished me also well

And then a
Love you to sign off

Like what the fuck!!!! I called him and he spoke as if nothing mattered.
I confronted him with all the lies and he kept saying I am cornering him for every new lie I unearthed

He said if he has not got an abroad opportunity he would never have called me because he felt he wanted to be grateful???!!!!

His msg was the he was a broken man. And I tried to fix a broken man and sometimes he doesn't know how to give back love for love looked like you are fixing me.

With a heart full of gratitude I want to wish you well.

Seriously?? Guys is this how men in forties behave?
He just wanted to show off that he is moving abroad and this is the last msg he will ever send me

When I returned his call back he was like tell me when do you want to get married.
Everything was so casual for him

I was here suffering every second .
He simply said he loves himself so much that for a divorced man who is broke money is what gives him power and he wants to live life

Sometimes I wonder how my life went to completely being broke no job deteriorated health and he who actually cheated on me and betrayed my trust is truly living life with money now back

On one hand am just so happy to have seen his face after 8 months but when he told he me called me only to tell me he is in a good space by going back to UK and he would never have even bothered about me if i were married or am seeing someone else

Guys I need your help.
The man has not changed one bit. He is the same old man. Same old version.

Now he is moving abroad where his freedom will be even more for him to lie anything he wants to.

There is no “me” in the relationship.

I dont know how many of you are like me who dread the word self concept Every time i see that word it stresses me so bad.

Please can someone give me a better terminology atleast for self concept

When someone tells me that your self concept is the reason why this happened it freaks me out. More so when people say I worked on my self concept I really get triggered.

I have not understood self concept I cannot do I AM Statements.

I am chosen I am priority no one is better than me no one compares to me- These statements feel uneasy for me. I have a relational nervous system . I cannot use such statements about myself without having any relational object.

Feels like I am in a island with no one around and I tell myself I am chosen prioritised adored etc.

I sure am failing at manifestation principles. Please dont say if you believe so then it is so. I am saying I am not getting the self concept part right.

After decades of rejection and abandonment issues to tell myself I am chosen feels like lying to myself . I am chosen by who? Like i said for a Person who cannot validate herself without an object of reference it is difficult to build self concept of being chosen or loved .

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May be it is so simple as simple as 1 + 1 = 2. But for some it’s not so simple because they have never known simple .

If someone who can empathize with this post and respond - Please share your suggestions

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