FP blamed me for my memory disorder
A tiny bit of background to understand why this is so upsetting for me right now: I'm dating my FP, and both of us are diagnosed DID systems which means struggling with disassociation and memory loss for both of us
My roommates are finally fixing my car after nearly 7 months of putting it off even though I had no way of working or driving my partner to work. My partner was able to get rides for most shifts from one roommate but the other refused to take them for their other shifts so they've suffered both a massive blow to their already shitty hours and our income. Obviously an extremely stressful situation to be in all around for the both of us.
Well, we went to go clean my car out a little bit since it should be ready to go by today and while we were out there they mentioned that they had told us to clean the car out. Now, I do remember them saying this to us early last month, but at the time we had gotten extremely sick (also paired with there being some stuff that had molded and gone bad, which I'm very allergic to mold). When I brought this up they told me that they had said to clean it around when the car first broke down.
I have 0 recollection of this whatsoever.
They got kinda upset about it (though they tell me to stop reading into their tone) and went back inside while I finished up, and when I met them downstairs the first thing that they said to me was "That's how I know you don't listen to me"
Fucking excuse me? Neither of us can remember if we ate most days and you want me to remember a tiny conversation that happened 6 fucking months ago? When you know I've been stressed to the point of constant disassociation because we haven't had a car and are living with people we actively fucking hate?? Mind you, I've had this exact same conversation with them about them not listening to us, but never about something 6 fucking months after the fact.
It's just really getting to me and I needed to get this out before I lash out at them over it. It's also not helped by the fact that we already split on them a few days ago and were just barely starting to feel less angry about them commenting that us not eating much due to our eating disorder is our own fault. And now they're just not talking to me.
I'm not even like, desperate for their attention or anything anymore. I'm not sad they're ignoring me, I don't want them anywhere near me right now. I know I need to talk to them about this but I just.... it feels like every time we do talk to them they brush it off and nothing changes.
I can't even fathom leaving though, like a dog tied to a tree just waiting for them to come back and love me and make me feel happy. Anyways sorry this is so long and rambly I just. I'm so upset right now. Advice is fine if you have any but I'm not specifically seeking any out