u/Effective-Call-6757

i don't know how to start this off but i just got up from an attempt (i was trying to get to the void) and omg... the symptoms i experienced genuinely have me SHOOK... when i first laid down and was affirming my body was numb and my ears were ringing, then later on i felt like i was spinning. i slowly stopped spinning then started spinning AGAIN then finally stopped after like two times or so. i also felt pressure on my third eye and my eyes were doing the rem sleep thing, y'know when they flutter and twitch super fast? yeah. a bit after that when i started to affirm "i am in the void state and i have the intention to shift to my desired reality" my body went even more numb than it already was somehow and i couldn't feel my bed under me. my breathing got really shallow and i was struggling to breath, it felt like someone was trying to suffocate me and i felt like i needed to gasp for air. my heart was beating OUT of my chest too like crazy. it all got so overwhelming and i couldn't focus on shifting anymore so i just got up.

when i got up i saw flashes out of the corner of my eye and when i closed my eyes i'd start to see white, like it'd fade in. it was so weird. and when i went to the bathroom and looked in the mirror i couldn't recognize myself at first, i just felt so confused and disoriented. i was barely processing the whole thing. i was really acting like i shifted or something lol. i saw a spider in my sink as well and i just looked up what it means and it says "seeing a spider in your sink is a powerful spiritual symbol urging you to process your emotions. it represents emotional cleansing, the need to wash away negative energy, and a reminder to take control of your destiny" which i think might be a sign. i always see signs so i'm not really surprised. i've calmed down now but i still kinda feel wonky and teary-eyed.

i just wanna know if what i experienced is normal and if anyone else has went through the same, and i'd like some sort of clarification or reassurance 😭 why is my body reacting so strongly and why the hell is it so draining and taking such a toll on me emotionally?? i should probably take a break, i've been on the shifting grind for 4 nights straight now ;_;

OKAY SOOO... i was laying down flat on my back kindaa in a starfish position and i was slowly counting to 100. every time i'd count i'd take a deep breath and hold it in for a few seconds before exhaling. when i got to around 80 i suddenly felt like i was spinning fast. it didn't feel like the room was spinning, no, i felt like i was on one of those spinning poles you'd see at the park. i couldn't feel my body or my bed or anything at all, i literally couldn't feel a damn thing it was so trippy. my heart was beating OUT of my chest like crazy and my eyelids were doing that rem sleep thing, y'know when they start fluttering super fast? yeah. i genuinely felt like i was shifting and i think i was, i'm convinced that i was. i only snapped out of it cause my parents started talking really loudly but i feel like if they didn't then i would've have shifted fr 😭 i've been trying to get to the void for a few nights now and i'm sooo proud of myself for almost getting there, especially so quickly. i'm not even upset this is lowk like a victory for me, every "failed" attempt to me isn't a fail i view it as practice. the more i do it the better i get and the closer i get!! was i actually about to shift or were these just strong symptoms??