u/Effective_End_2354

So I’m 15, AFAB, and realized I am agender a couple or so months ago. I’m not out obviously, my family would not accept me if I told them and I don’t plan on ever coming out to them (they are cool but transphobic). I want to transition only socially, not medically as I don’t have body dysphoria. Are there any ways I can transition socially without anyone realizing? I stay home most of the time and therefore I can’t like do super obvious things. I’m allowed to dress however (as long as it isn’t inappropriate obviously). My transition goals are to have people look at me and not know if I’m a boy or girl at first glance at least. I plan on getting a shorter hairstyle soon before school starts for me (they are also cool with me having short hair). As for changing my voice I quite like my voice as is and I don’t feel a major need to change it plus obviously that would be an obvious change. I plan on joining an online school club (I do online schooling) that is for LGBTQ+ kids and on there I will use my different name (Kai) and my pronouns on there. Idk if there’s anything else I need to mention, but yeah is there anything I can do to subtly socially transition without my parents realizing these changes are due to being trans?

So I recently realized I’m nonbinary and I’m struggling to accept it. I used to go through moments where I would be completely fine with it (usually during midnight) and when I woke up I would feel so ashamed but now I have made it to a point where I no longer am filled with major guilt but it’s still there. I was wondering what can I do to try to accept myself completely? I come from a conservative family and they are fine with my sexuality but I can never tell them about being nonbinary. Online I go by she/they and have the name Kai, but IRL obviously I only go by she/her (AFAB) and go by my legal name. Also I like my name but I also really like my new name so I’m fine with going by both of them.