u/Efficient_Drawing108

My predator helios neo 16 won't open like there's no light or anything. No it's not drained, and yes even if I plugged the charger in there's still no light.

After I finished my plates on autocad, I shutdown the laptop then now when I got home from school. I opened the laptop, at first it was stuck on the predator logo, so I forced shutdown it then turned it off again. And it was stuck again on the predator logo, the 3rd time it happened it was just black and no light or anything.

I really need help, I don't have any money to fixed it and my plates are due this week. I'm just so frustrated now, my parents blamed me and cursed me out. It's just they're not helping either. I'm just so tired from school, commission works and its how I get money from commission works and all of my projects, commissions is in that laptop.

I really need someone to talk to rn

My ex (M21) and I(F20) broke up, we were in a relationship 3 to almost 4 yrs. And in those years he abused me, he sexual harassed me (taking a video of me while he sexual harassed me and I was trying to sleep at that time). He's also very manipulative, he would tell me that no other guys would love me and accept me and only him will ever love and accept me that lend me into thinking that I'm scared of losing him because no one would love me and accept me. He's also a cheater, for the first yr of our rs he kept stalking his ex and he did try to reconcile with her and he broke up with me on our motmot. He's very insensitive and would also flirt with other girls and one time he called another girl as 'sugar mommy'. He never took me out on a date, he'll just take me in a dirty cheap ass motel and he would subconsciously pressure me into doing it with him and even borrowed money (yes nangungutang sya sakin just for that) for his cndom and for the motel check in (what do I know back then? I was only 17 yrs old).

Now I'm not trying to be clean, since our rs was that toxic we would constantly fight and break up, we would also tell hurtful things to each other (nag mumurahan kami, nag sisigawan). Tho he never really abused me physically (thats what he said) but mostly after our fight he would subconsciously forced me into doing it with him and it hurts even if I told him to stop he would just continue what his doing. Afterwards, he would tell that it satisfy him na nasasaktan ako pag kinakasta nya ako, and that he would purposely be more rough even if nag bbleed na ako.

And I tried breaking up with him multiple times, but I kept going back with him because his manipulation tactics always worked on me. Like when he will tell me things like he would be the only person would ever love me and that I shouldn't socialize with anyone but him. When I turned 20 I started to realized things, and how fcked up our rs. I resented him, i hated him for all the things he done so I broken up with him. A month after I started socializing with people, and I started hanging out with my friends more and I met this guy (my suitor now). He treat me so much better, he never yells at me, he never sexualized me and he would take me out to different cafes so that I'll go out explore places with him (he even suggested that I should have a solo date).

Now my so called friends (they were my friends since shs yes for almost 4 yrs, so all thru out ng rs ko with my ex they've witnessed it) they started hanging out with him behind my back and hearing him out more. Now they're accusing me that I cheated on my ex (just because I moved on too quickly) and no, I never cheated on my ex, super tago at sakal ako all thru out ng rs namin. Even going out with my friends (my other circle) is super hirap nga mag paalam. It just hurts because I value and I have deeper connections with those so called friends. I called them out sa internet that they made my traumas their lunch gossip, and I called them stupid and a weirdo for that. And one of them naging avoidant, she just silently cut me off (unfollow me on my socials) I guess ganyan pag guilty at walang accountability. One of them got mad because I cut her off too. And their reaction was;

Friend 1 (the one who got mad bc I cut her off): Yes, I invited him (my ex) to hang out with us and so what? (She even post it on her ig story na magkakasama sila)

Friend 2: I thought u wouldn't mind us hanging out with him. (Nilibre sya ng ex ko btw, pulubi ata)

Friend 3 (the avoidant one): Ure a cheater, u left him for a guy and u guys just broken up etc etc.

(I just made their reactions here short and not too squammy kasi yes very squammy ung original na response nila saakin)

They only knew the surface level of my suffering with my ex, I never told them how we would constantly sexualized me and harassed me (main reason why I'm practicing celibacy rn) and that so called friends are now mad at me and hate me because I called them out on the internet. They never did apologize to me, and their explanations are just them justifying their actions and not taking accountability. I expected better because we've been friends for so long and couldn't believe that they would took my ex side.

I just don't know what to do now, I've been trying to heal myself from my past rs because everything he did is still here and I can't move forward. And it just hurts me even more that I'm not only going thru a break up with my ex, I'm also breaking up with my so called friends. Ngayon, ako ba ung OA for calling them out sa internet? (or they say I talked shit about them sa internet).