u/EffortOk9222

My boyfriend has gotten poorly, thankfully we don’t live too far apart. So, I decided to buy some groceries of his favourite bits to help him out as a surprise. Wasn’t going to stick around because I felt like he probably would want to stay in bed and sleep.

I ended up telling him as I got on the train to his, in which he immediately said that he was fine and didn’t need anything, and that we were seeing eachother tomorrow anyway so no need. I felt hurt and embarrassed.

We have now argued, he said he felt I had cornered him where he accepts my gifts or he looks like an asshole. I explained over and over how I was going to drop the bag and then that was it and my intention was just to do something to help make him feel better. He is angry because he had no input on the matter and felt he was put on the spot.

I feel so upset, I didn’t want to anger him over this when I thought it was a thoughtful idea, but i’m also a little bit lost on why he is so angered when we would’ve barely spoke to eachother, just simply dropping a bag and leaving. Did I screw up?

This job market is so demoralising and is frankly ruining my wellbeing.

I’m F22, growing up i’ve always had a love for creation and art. I make art, animation, from the age of 11-16 I used to make edits and I learnt after effects on my own, I’ve started dabbling in touchdesigner too. I love creating , it feels like that is what I am here for and what makes me the happiest.

I went to college, got great grades and went to university for fine art at one of the top schools in my country, I’m now a few months away from graduating and I just think that this is it. My life will be miserable here on out because I made a stupid decision to chase my passions and I am sadly from a lower class background so I can’t turn to anyone for connections or funding like my classmates.

I’ve lost count at how many jobs I applied for. I’ve tried studio assistant, video editor, motion design, PR, HR, social media, museums, galleries, curation, anything entry. The list goes on. I’ve been rejected from everything or ghosted and it’s breaking me. I’ve recieved feedback and it’s always been that my CV and cover letter are great but there are too many people.

I don’t want to work at a supermarket for my life, hell - i’m happy with any job as long as it’s something that isn’t going to make me miserable after a year but even ’normal’ jobs are a risk in finding. So I feel stuck and feel like this is the end of my aspirations and it hurts a lot.

I don’t know where to go anymore, I feel like this job market won’t get any better and sadly i’m not a london creative with daddy’s money and friends. I considered eliminating the idea of an art career and going all in motion design since i’ve got short term work experience in that but even then, the job market is still hell, times 100 if i’m wanting to do something creative. I feel like maybe I need a reality check to give up.

Where do I go from here?