u/Electrical-Play-4850

I wasted 11th, wasted 1 month of 12th, have been getting back on track slowly. Right now I am studying consistently, doing DPPs and question practise. Still have lecture backlogs though.

I feel anxious. I know it's my fault that I wasted 11th, but only recently has the reality hit me that I need to get a good college.

Is it too late for me to target an IIT?

It's my holiday homework, and marks will be added to ISC marksheet.

Can anyone tell me about some resources to follow for this project?

Everything about this collab has been done so half-heartedly. There's no mini-games, just a stupid 1v1 challenge.

The gun/melee skin designs are just so ass. The M4 or Axe design(the only two that come to my mind right now) are nothing but "THE BOYS" lettering put all over their body.

The Battle Pass does not have a single skin related to The Boys.

Previous collabs like Girls' Frontline and Gundam were so good. Some people might say that CODM is supposed to be a "military game" but it's no longer like that - especially for COD Mobile. Gundam brought so many new skins, operators and a nice minigame, Girls' Frontline did that too.

They really need to step up their collabs, bad collabs might as well be the reason players start losing interest.

ISTG ato irritating lage nijer e.

Roj alarm ta 6.30 te set kore rakhi and then I wake up at 8 😭😭. It's not even like I stay up late, I go to sleep at 11. Khub late hole 11.30.

Roj bhabhi porte boshbo and then 8taye uthte hoye.

I just cannot study. And I mean I CANNOT. I have tried pomodoro, not sitting with my phone, setting up widgets like "n days till JEE M" and what not. I have exhausted almost every trick humans know of in order to study. But I still can't.

I study from PW's online batch, and already my backlogs have started piling up. I'd promised myself so many times at the end of 11th that I would study properly, I would "lock in". I am skipping tests too. On top of that, I have 3 tuitons for boards and I am ignoring them as well. HWs, lectures, question practice - I am not doing anything. I either play games or scroll through Instagram/Reddit all day long, my screentime is around 6 or 6.5 hours. Even if my eyes get tired or I feel exhausted, I am still on my phone. And no, I am not depressed, nor do I have ADHD. I got 94% in my boards, and after that things went downhill.

Truth is, I don't care much about my studies at all. If I get 75% in my boards and enroll in a tier 3 college near my home, I'd be okay with it. Whatever I want to do, or plan to do, is for my parents. 60K of my dad's money went to waste because I left PW online after just 5 months, and he gladly agreed to my exit. My mother was asking me the other day if I need a new laptop for lectures, she would sell her jewelery for it. I have lurked on Reddit long enough to have an idea of how bad and toxic Indian parents can be, and tbh, I am glad I have such good parents.

I just want to pay off the sacrifices they made and the money they spent on me by getting a good %ile and a good college.

Even right now, they think I am studying on my laptop. They don't know about my academic condition, the fact that I can hardly solve JEE Level problems. I am behind all of my friends as well. Even the ones who were average till 10th are grinding hard now.

I can't bear to see the look of disappointment on my mother and father's faces if I do badly in the exam. But it's like I am my own worst enemy, it's like I am setting myself up for failure. I daydream a lot about getting a good college and being praised by everyone I know but I have hardly done anything towards my vision. I just wanna kms man sometimes.

If any of you reading this have any advice to share, no matter how inconsequential, I would be glad.

I just cannot study. And I mean I CANNOT. I have tried pomodoro, not sitting with my phone, setting up widgets like "n days till JEE M" and what not. I have exhausted almost every trick humans know of in order to study. But I still can't.

I study from PW's online batch, and already my backlogs have started piling up. I'd promised myself so many times at the end of 11th that I would study properly, I would "lock in". I am skipping tests too. On top of that, I have 3 tuitons for boards and I am ignoring them as well. HWs, lectures, question practice - I am not doing anything. I either play games or scroll through Instagram/Reddit all day long, my screentime is around 6 or 6.5 hours. Even if my eyes get tired or I feel exhausted, I am still on my phone. And no, I am not depressed, nor do I have ADHD. I got 94% in my boards, and after that things went downhill.

Truth is, I don't care much about my studies at all. If I get 75% in my boards and enroll in a tier 3 college near my home, I'd be okay with it. Whatever I want to do, or plan to do, is for my parents. 60K of my dad's money went to waste because I left PW online after just 5 months, and he gladly agreed to my exit. My mother was asking me the other day if I need a new laptop for lectures, she would sell her jewelery for it. I have lurked on Reddit long enough to have an idea of how bad and toxic Indian parents can be, and tbh, I am glad I have such good parents.

I just want to pay off the sacrifices they made and the money they spent on me by getting a good %ile and a good college.

Even right now, they think I am studying on my laptop. They don't know about my academic condition, the fact that I can hardly solve JEE Level problems. I am behind all of my friends as well. Even the ones who were average till 10th are grinding hard now.

I can't bear to see the look of disappointment on my mother and father's faces if I do badly in the exam. But it's like I am my own worst enemy, it's like I am setting myself up for failure. I daydream a lot about getting a good college and being praised by everyone I know but I have hardly done anything towards my vision. I just wanna kms man sometimes.

If any of you reading this have any advice to share, no matter how inconsequential, I would be glad.