u/Electrical-Start-741

25 M I just need a hug I’m so tired of being alone in this cold world I curl up in my blanket and hug a pillow to sleep every night. I have friends but they aren’t true, they treat me like a third person like only when they need numbers when going somewhere but don’t know a single true thing about me. They just went on a vacation without even asking me or telling me, it hit. I was in a relationship we had different religions we both said we’d make it work so I put so much effort and time into our relationship and 2 1/2 years later, she said she didn’t want to go out of religion then I was left alone, broke, credit cards maxed out. I feel like I’ve lost a piece of myself after everything (friends and the relationship), I’ve started paying back the credit cards bought stuff that I needed to when I was in the relationship and got my first pilots license for my dream to become an airline pilot one day. After my friends, the relationship I’ve been alone and I can’t really just go to parents either so Idk what to do. Like why can’t anyone in my life show a little bit the amount of care, I really do put so much care and effort into others around me, people say I’m too straight/ innocent is that why? If it’s true I hate it I don’t want to be straight/innocent I just really want something deep and warm

Why does the bible say things that literally melt anyone’s heart like if the father feeds the birds how much valuable are you, that God so loved the world he sent his only son to save us, ask and it will be given to you but when you live your life you have to go through everything without ever feeling or experiencing when the bible says to us (and honestly I think that’s why people don’t believe in God anymore) if God’s love is more that anyone why do we never feel it? Why do we have to face battles everyday and still do the normal things? I don’t wanna say it but our lives literally contradict what the bible says.

I’m stuck in a cycle of survival everyday, when I try to break out of the survival something always happens I’m not exaggerating something ALWAYS happens I honestly don’t know if I’m cursed everyone I tell my circumstances to they all go oh wow because the things that happen seem created like someone’s interfering (I won’t go deep in details) but he knows how much I want to move into a career, I had been working so much putting in so much effort into studying but then bam like why he is giving me so many obstacles? It’s been years like this and I’m genuinely just giving up hope that he’ll ever come to my aid but will always listen, I’m 25 and I can’t understand I’m trying so hard to be a pilot and I kid you not everytime I’m about to something big I hit an obstacle EVERYTIME

I recently had a breakup too which has left me devastated because we both were planning to get married one day, the relationship had reached that point as well. I have a car which I really like but slowly the paint has faded away and it looks like it’s been through a war zone it looks terrible I’m really trying but life situation is so tough I can’t even dig myself out of the hole I’m in rn and when I need his help the most in my entire life, he’s nowhere, if it wasn’t for my parents I’d have been on the streets with nothing how would I ever wanna go back in believing God really cares? Because I have went to church on sundays, prayed read the bible a lot, among my mom dad and brother I know bible more than them (literally) because I wanted to get close and know him but this is where I am

I’m (25M) 5’7 brown and 240lbs, been in one relationship my whole life. I keep my myself neat and clean, fresh haircuts most of the time and wear good outfits, I get a few looks here and there but that’s it, I get rejected every time I approach someone and if I like someone and they get a hint that I do, they become super rude to me. I’ve been on dating apps put up my best pictures and nothing should keep dating aside for now or continue or should I focus on myself loose some weight any advice would be greatly welcome