I moved on but i never got the chance to rant about this to anyone so here yal go
When i was 13 i was in my first ever romantic relationship with a girl my age. We both went to the same school, in year 7 we became friends and then we became best friends. We spent all the time together and she was amazing. Year 8 came around and her new friend group came to our school and we talked less but we was still 🤞.
I go abroad for like a week and it's just me and my parents at some point im venting to her about how i just wanna run away and shi and we get even closer. But for some dumbass reason when im back to school it's like we both have this awkward energy around eachother and we dont talk much.
We text 24/7, we talk sometimes in school. A week after that we start dating as girlfriends and i kid you not we genuinely went 3 months into the relationship without talking in school (EVEN THO WHENEVER WE WENT OUT TOGETHER WE WOULD CUDDLE AND HOLD HANDS BLABLABLA SO I DONT GET WHY WE WAS BOTH SHY)
In year 9 we got a mutual friend and from that point on we talked face to face ALL THE TIME and we got way closer but things changed too. I accidentally said a lie to her and instead of saying the truth instantly i kept building up on it until the found out and then i just tried my best to make it up to her any way i could. I never said no to her and i spent all my savings to make sure she ate every day (she had her own problems)
Fast foward a couple months we had sex for the first time and and after that we just kept having it. It would get to a point were we would plan a hang out for 6 hours and i would ask her if we can go do something but she would beg me to do it again, and we would end up doing it for the entire hang out instead of actually going to places.
Then something happened with our mutual friend (who was kinda homophobic) and she and the moot friend went against me in it and i felt really betrayed but then after the argument my gf (which broke up w me cuz of the argument) texts me privately asking if we can get back together and that i was lowk right (so we secretly date again)
Atp im pissed off i let her do whatever she wants w me even after she broke up with me and asked to get back together for 6 times. Then after 1.5 years of this she hits me with a "i forgot we were dating" and we just broke up in the school yard
(Before yall say sum about the thing i did just know she also did stuff to me like use my feelings as a joke, pick on my insecurities, and told my private stuff to my friends...etc)